They don't really work and besides a few days of feelign like shit with brain zaps I'm not sure why I bother?
Best case scenario I become suicidal again and kill myself.
Thoughts?
You should not discontinue medication until you speak with your healthcare provider.
Neuroanatomy and neurochemistry are complex systems. A high level symptom like depression could be coming from any one of a myriad of causes. A given medication works against specific causes, but will not work if your symptoms are being caused by something not targeted by that medication.
Until our technology and understand improves to the point that we can do some kind of neuroimaging to diagnose, the only thing we can do is to listen to your symptoms and make a best guess. If it doesn’t work, it means that guess was wrong, and you either need a dosage adjustment or a medication change. If it does work but has unmanageable side effects, that’s the same. Any continuing symptoms or side effects have diagnostic relevance, and you need to work with medical staff to dial it in.
There's plenty of different ones to try. Go to your doctor and see if they can put you on something else. You don't want to quit cold turkey, that's a rough experience.
I think you've got all the advice you needed and I don't want to leave this open which could attract trolls.
So basically:
- Set your alarm for 8:00 on Monday and hammer the appointments line at your GPs.
- If you are struggling to make it through until then, phone the Samaritans.
All the answers will (or should) be along the same lines.
Don't stop any medication without speaking to your GP and that is especially so for antidepressants. You may not think they are working but stopping cold can be hard. There are a lot of different pills available and it can often be a case of trying a different one and seeing if that works better. Also don't be afraid to ask for this to be escalated to mental health services.