Do you do anything to heal from yours? Decent answers can be as basic as things like mindfulness, affirmations, ways to self-regulate when you freak out, and how to find community when you've been atomized.

You don't have to read this part. It just gives context about my situation.

I'm not white. My grandparents spent much of their life experiencing wartime. My people got oppressed, and when the terror reached a critical level, the US got involved with keeping it going. Apparently there were concentration camps in my people's history. I haven't looked for myself because it scares me. But I can see myself behaving certain ways because such events lead to generational trauma.

For example, my family has lots of rushing and holding their bodies rigidly. In fear of a consequence if we stop. And they can't relax unless there's a contrast of someone else rushing faster and being even more rigid. It's like someone else needs to be prepared for labor or doing labor, with a high sense of urgency and fear. Someone else has to pick up the pace so they can stop. They will be cruel and put someone else on edge just so that they can relax. It's the only way they know how to relax. My parents retaliate at a sign of me relaxing or doing self care. They have to control everything so I'm not relaxed. So much more than that has been passed down.

I can see it in my parents and my siblings. That's two generations down. And one generation back -my grandparents- is when a total reign of terror on my people finally ended. My grandmas and grandpas directly lived it. I'm not far away in the chain effects of that.