Yeah, it's half "I actually have a grasp of this stuff and am no longer flailing around in the dark." and the other half is "oh god, the people around me are so smug and proud about flailing around in the dark and would sooner cut out my eyes to force me to join them than actually turn on a light themselves."
On the one hand its nice to have a coherent ideological framework
On the other hand I am jokerified![joker-dancing joker-dancing](https://www.hexbear.net/pictrs/image/f5e91d86-7c03-4661-9bdf-9ea220f4ae85.png)
Yeah, it's half "I actually have a grasp of this stuff and am no longer flailing around in the dark." and the other half is "oh god, the people around me are so smug and proud about flailing around in the dark and would sooner cut out my eyes to force me to join them than actually turn on a light themselves."