Seriously, I'm generally a lurker because if I start engaging in stuff I get more and more angry. Like actual feeling it build up in your chest rage and fury. That either turns into bitter resentment that I can't treat these fucking people to the just desserts they have coming to them, or utter defeat and desperation to just fucking cease existing.
I've gone to a therapist on and off for my whole life (cptsd) but I've never had any response. I feel like I need goddamn brain damage to function in this hellscape. I don't know how y'all deal with chuds, libs, and just people in general without fighting back the urge to drive a truck through stuff.
For me it's loads of meditation and learning to enjoy my personal time/space where I just do normie stuff.
I've tried meditating and I just can't do it right. I always get stuck on some thought on exactly how much this society fucking sucks, get frustrated I can't let it go, and then compounded into even more things I've failed at. And my normie stuff is playing games, which is full of g*mers.