Lost my friend to Nazism. His personhood is going to be completely erased so he's dead to me. It's as if he committed suicide. I've been heavily grieving for years.
Lost my friend to Nazism. His personhood is going to be completely erased so he's dead to me. It's as if he committed suicide. I've been heavily grieving for years.
I lost an uncle to suicide. I say uncle, but the man was my father figure all throughout life. We were texting, 10 minutes later he unalived himself with rope. It fuuuucked me up and I've been seeing 3 different therapists to deal with that plus childhood trauma, PTSD, and some other issues I didn't realize I had until this event brought it all out.
But you know, the therapy helps a lot. EMDR, DBT, radical acceptance and exposure therapy are making this bearable. I got one of them semicolon tattoos because fuck if I'll ever subject my kids to these emotions and damage. I've moved into acceptance, but it's been about a year and a half. I still think about him and miss him, but I accept what happened due to his own mental illnesses.
I'm really sorry that you lost your father figure. Sounds like a good tattoo for you to have. There's always so much to live for and relationships to have.
I've gone to a DBT group and seen multiple therapists as well. I'm trying to practice radical acceptance, but I usually forget that the very concept of it exists. Because of that, my work on it is sporadic and slow.
I guess I can accept that my friend fell for Nazi rhetoric while battling a drug addiction. I don't think he chose this. He was stolen by a death cult and there's nothing to do but be keenly aware of the danger Nazis pose.