I don’t want to talk to a therapist. I don’t want to talk to my parents. I don’t want to talk to my friends. They’d either laugh at me, turn me in to the DHS, or do both. I’m very afraid because my mental state is worsening and I’ve had another panic attack today

  • gayhobbes [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    Violent thoughts are not thoughts you'd necessarily act on. I have violent thoughts a lot because I have OCD, but I am not going to act on them. I am disturbed by them. It sounds to me like you're disturbed by your violent thoughts too. That's normal.

    I've thought about murdering people and making them dance like a puppet. I have thought about killing people I love dearly in extremely gruesome ways. Trust me, it's what OCD is like. You are not these thoughts. You are upset by these thoughts, not encouraged by them. That makes you normal. The thoughts are upsetting though so you need to learn how to cope with them.

    I do think seeing a therapist will help. A good therapist will not report you or laugh at you. They will understand that you're having upsetting thoughts.