I must have an undiagnosed SOMETHING that has been causing me to have full-ass panic attacks before work and I've now missed three days this week..... I have no idea what to do and instead of solving it my plan is apparently to lay in bed and freak the fuck out about everything that is now piling up and getting worse. Like I've always known something is up but I should really be able to like take a shower or make lunch why is that so hard. Really makes a guy wish he had healthcare or something, but more importantly right now is that I have bills that are due and my paycheck just won't cover it because I didn't fucking go to work!

I was going to post this in mutualaid but I might as well just lay here and watch things get worse all day