what i love about csm is how real the minds of the characters are. asa is not a cool or bombastic protagonist, she's miserable and full of jealousy and self-loathing, she has low self-esteem with her occasional fun moments like her aquarium date. denji in part 1 wants to live a life that he always thought was impossible, which starts with sex and good food and comfort. in part 2 he just wants attention and love and doesnt know how to go about it, and he feels miserable when he cant get a girlfriend. their feelings are very real and valid and pretty selfish, and its likely that you've felt the same way at some point