Oh yeah, I came to that realization myself a while ago, that if I'm doing nothing then I'm essentially just an extra angry liberal. And that over a long enough time span, being alone and head full of angry leftist thoughts would transform me into a bitter, incomprehensible crank. I didn't want that, and unfortunately I think I'm halfway there already.
So I have done work, handed out food, lots of things. Never manifested a friendship though, that just doesn't seem to work. Puzzle pieces don't fit. I haven't accomplished much either, like at this point it feels like the praxis was just done out of personal validation more than anything else. It's kept me relatively normal. I have some ability to talk with other people for a few minutes at a time.
I agree with everything you said and I am happy to hear your progress. That being said, I am of the opinion that old age makes incomprehensible cranks of us all. Too much time, not enough similar cultural touchstones, etc.
Friendship is a difficult thing and rarely comes out of politics. Too much jockeying and signalling. You'd be better off trying to make friends at a dart league, even if you have to deal with the occasional off-color comment or stupid political opinion. However, in my experience you'll find people are, in general, more accepting of weird leftist bullshit than you'd think, and are even more accepting of it if they already like you for other reasons.
Oh yeah, I came to that realization myself a while ago, that if I'm doing nothing then I'm essentially just an extra angry liberal. And that over a long enough time span, being alone and head full of angry leftist thoughts would transform me into a bitter, incomprehensible crank. I didn't want that, and unfortunately I think I'm halfway there already.
So I have done work, handed out food, lots of things. Never manifested a friendship though, that just doesn't seem to work. Puzzle pieces don't fit. I haven't accomplished much either, like at this point it feels like the praxis was just done out of personal validation more than anything else. It's kept me relatively normal. I have some ability to talk with other people for a few minutes at a time.
I agree with everything you said and I am happy to hear your progress. That being said, I am of the opinion that old age makes incomprehensible cranks of us all. Too much time, not enough similar cultural touchstones, etc.
Friendship is a difficult thing and rarely comes out of politics. Too much jockeying and signalling. You'd be better off trying to make friends at a dart league, even if you have to deal with the occasional off-color comment or stupid political opinion. However, in my experience you'll find people are, in general, more accepting of weird leftist bullshit than you'd think, and are even more accepting of it if they already like you for other reasons.