After the school shooting news yesterday, I decided, as a transwoman, that I should just stay off Twitter for a week or two and avoid the worst of the discourse. I already have a bad habit of diving in to any transphobic thread I see quote tweeted on my feed, and I felt like the things I would see would be unbearable this time.
Almost immediately after I took steps to quit, like removing the shortcut, signing out, and blocking it on my desktop browser, I realized how addicted I truly was. I keep opening the site that took the spot on the shortcut and opening up the blocked page. It feels like a "default action" that happens after I check my phone (already a muscle memory-type habit every time I have a free couple of seconds) and see that I have no other notifications I need to address. Once I realize how bad this had gotten, I felt even more sure that I need at least a long break.
I first started really "getting into" Twitter around the start of the pandemic, when I followed a bunch of people I found interesting (mostly leftist shitposter types) and started habitually checking my feed. It was an extremely miserable, lonely, frustrated time in my life. Nowadays I'm happy and fulfilled, with active social and love lives, many things to see and do, the largest and best "offline" world that I've ever had. Why had my Twitter usage not declined?
I think the most honest answer is that I was addicted to the feeling of righteous indignation that Twitter steadily provided. My feed was an endless barrage of topics, from AI to China to capitalism to transphobia, where I would be left thinking "almost everyone besides me is an idiot and/or evil". I wouldn't say it was a pleasant feeling... more upsetting and exhausting than anything, and sometimes very despair-inducing. But it was an addictive feeling, stimulating, ego-feeding, a rush...
It was also a bridge for communication, and I think this is the second biggest reason I clung to it. A good number of my friends, including my boyfriend, are also "terminally online". It made me happy to "fluently speak" this esoteric twitter language of many memes and many layers of irony and many targets of shared revulsion. It feels very bonding, to share in something so small and obscure. I also felt happy that if more "normie" friends asked me about some "discourse" topic, I'd be informed enough to share some context, some history, and how personally I felt about it.
And I think that's really the only reason that remains compelling to me... I want to be informed. I want to have takes that aren't just surface level regurgitation, but nuanced, historically-founded takes that represent digging deep into many perspectives. Not just for my ego to feel smart and cultured and whatever, but because I feel like it's my duty as a member of society to arrive at the takes that are most empathetic, have the most perspective, reflect my fundamental values the most. When the shit hits the fan, I want to know where I'm showing up and which side I'm standing on. Twitter spurred me to get up to speed on way more topics than I would have otherwise.
But to be informed and a good person and such, do I really have to spend hours a day scrolling through tweets, maybe idly chuckling a few times, but mostly just subjecting myself to the worst opinions beyond my imagination? Probably not! So what should I do instead? Stick to Hexbear, where things move a bit slower and no one is advocating for my death? Check out some leftist news sites?
Sorry for a long post, but I thought probably some folks on here could relate to this and I'd be curious what other people have done.
Overall I think that is a good decision for just about anyone. Logging off is really good for most people's mental health and sense of well-being. And like you said, there's a lot of bleak transphobic content right now and it doesn't actually make anything better if you make yourself read it. On the other hand, taking care of yourself and having some good days does make things better.
There's nothing wrong with taking a news break, but if you want something that isn't Twitter, yeah this site is probably plenty for keeping up to date with the important stuff.
I certainly can relate to some degree. Way back I used to spend a lot of time on 4chan when I was less into politics. Over the time I realized how wretched that place truly was and I stopped frequenting it. I guess what im saying - regardless of the content you are consuming. Does it make you happier ? If not I would recommend dropping it.
Not to say you only need to consume content that makes you happy but if the stuff you consume daily makes you feel bad you should at least think about changing it up.
I also felt happy that if more “normie” friends asked me about some “discourse” topic, I’d be informed enough to share some context, some history, and how personally I felt about it.
I'm the complete opposite. When my SO asks me about some weird online topic (most recently they asked what a hotep is) I literally apologize that they'll have to know about it now.
Btw, they go on Twitter like every day, and I have never once in my life been on Twitter, but I'm somehow more up-to-date on this crap because you weirdos keep posting it here (not directed at OP who is making a fine decision).
I think a huge draw of social media is the general political impotence of people. As a leftist, particularly if you're in America, what is being a leftist beyond posting political opinions on the internet? What avenue is there for political self-actualization here? Most of politics for most Americans is voting, and then posting between electoral seasons.
I exclusively use hexbear, except for going through r/shitliberalssay and dumping helpful links on occasion (maybe once or twice a month). If that dumbass tiktok ban thing passes I'll probably just bail from social media entirely. It adds very very very little to my life, and if it becomes a genuine safety liability then fuck it, I won't risk prison or torture for posts.
I ditched it completely after Elon purchased it and slapped his face all over my timeline.
I stick to insta and tiktok, which have time lines that are more curated. I see some news, but most of it is art/shitpost content.
I finally picked up reading books again and it's been awesome.
FWIW deleting my Twitter account back in 2020 was one of the best online decisions I've ever made, I only realised just how deleterious it was to my mental health once it was gone. Most actually good twitter content tends to filter through to the internet at large anyway.
“almost everyone besides me is an idiot and/or evil”.
Even with new acc and only following leftist I still get jumpscared with a fucking Gamergator post so yeah just delelte/nuke twitter account, only have it in case an out of touch wants you to have social media
Tbh i wish this website didnt have a lot of suddenly not working.
maybe I'm just done with Twitter
based and mental health pilled
Death to America
I use a 3rd party app and only follow like 50 people so my timeline is not a constant refresh battle nor is it overrun with Elon and his suggested follows.
