Don't delete this unless you want to, you seem great thanks for posting
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What edible did you take? I've been enjoying a THC vape lately although probably using too much. It just makes work so much more pleasant. Glad to hear you're comfy stay well, comrade
I meant like what flavor etc. of edible. I was just making small talk.
You're sweet. But don't worry, you don't need to be baked all the time to be free of anxiety. This is a sneak preview.
Now start yelling at strangers outside when you get them alone and afraid. Act like you have a gun and nothing to lose. This is the only cure
Great I prefer slow and menacing but the most important part is going with the flow and your vibes 😃
Replace high with drunk, and yeah. When I have a pleasant buzz on and I'm in a comfy environment, the anxious part of my brain is quieted to the point where I can pretty much do all the stuff I want to do without worrying. It feels close to the way I used to feel as a kid before depression and anxiety hit me like a sack of bricks in high school. Hard to believe that I used to be a cheerful, goofy, sociable, and honestly kinda arrogant person.
It's not all doom and gloom---my depression has been under control for a while now, and I'm able to function normally sometimes despite the anxiety. But boy, if I didn't make a pact with myself a long time ago to never drink alone, I'd almost certainly be an alcoholic by now. I feel more myself two or three beers in than I do 99% of the time I'm sober.
God, are you me?? (except I do let myself drink alone once a week)
I find that getting high every day kind of ruins this effect for me. I don't get many interesting or creative thoughts when I'm smoking all the time, as it leads to a fair amount of brain fog. Weed is much better with taking breaks IMO, even a short one.
Posting is is how I practice removing my ego from social interactions. Like, I realized that I use “don’t care” to mean two very distinct things. There’s a genuine apathy and then there’s a motivation uninhibited by ego. It’s the second one I’ve been striving for more. Apathy about things I’d previously cared about is usually a sign of depression. But some lowkey meditation has helped me calm my ego down quite a bit.
I apparently have an unusually active default mode network, which is why all my therapists have called me “insightful”. It’s the flip side of the anxiety for me. I can describe my malfunctions very articulately, but that’s very different from being able to stop them. In fact. It was the same skillset that I couldn’t escape.
:stalin-heart: love you too comrade. I'm glad weed gives you some relief!
I took an edible and it gave me the courage to post
That's like saying "I drank a tea made out poisonous psychedelic cactus and my vomit poured out", posting as visceral reaction like purging toxins
I smoked a shit ton of weed this past weekend and ima be honest I’m still kinda woozy
incredibly beautiful post
however, most of the time i get high i just lose the ability to speak so I'd probably not want that to happen, but damn is it comfy
I ruined having 69 posts, deleted the 70th, now have 70. My posting is over I've ruined everything. (real)
Weed can actually improve your life dramatically, the idea that it is universally bad is some Nixon shit. If someone wants to be deleted and dumb all the time, they can do that but I know a lot of pretty heavy users and noone is like that, I'm constantly "high" and it has only improved my life. I have a weird sad ADHD brain, everyone acts like their personal experience is universal. And its more than weed keeping the wheels on this old bus. But yeah, only good experiences, no negatives, I actually am significantly more successful, educated, artistic and active politically than I ever was before. Just my personal exp, but stigmas are a thing
