cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/2766019
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Without getting into too much detail...I have been abused by women most of my life. I finally ended an abusive marriage with a female narcissist. I have never really struggled with this issue up until recently.
I am finding that I am often dismissed and not believed when I try to discuss this issue, even to therapists and my lawyer (all whom have also been female). I have almost no resources or support. There are no men's groups for this issue in my area. Often online I will see people mock people like myself. I have even had people on socialist sites dismiss situations like mine. It is beyond frustrating.
I understand how it is and I know that patriarchy and misogyny are still huge issues, but I've noticed myself feeling very resentful towards a lot of women recently and sometimes veer into misogynistic thoughts.
I don't want to be like this, but I am struggling.
Any advice on what I can do to control these thoughts and retrain my brain?
Thank you for your advice. My ex learned all this behavior from her mother, who might be an outright psychopath (not using that in a disparaging term, she is seriously ill mentally).
I have read a lot of books about narcissism and covert abuse in recent years. The best I've come across is Was It Even Abuse by Emma Rose.
I don't have a therapist atm, I am looking for one that specializes in narcissistic abuse and gaslighting. I am honestly in the verge of giving up professional therapy completely and using self therapy/workbooks instead.