Cause I don't think that there is anywhere in the world where I belong, or where anybody would actually like me no matter what I do, or how much I try to do right by other people.
I don't wanna go outside, or do anything anymore.
Cause I don't think that there is anywhere in the world where I belong, or where anybody would actually like me no matter what I do, or how much I try to do right by other people.
I don't wanna go outside, or do anything anymore.
I know intimacy is what I really want and sex is something that can follow naturally from that. I'm embarrassed about how little I've gotten and how long it's been but I need to get over that insecurity or it will ooze out of every pore. Going to the gym is helping with my pain and anxiety, and is getting me back on the weight loss train too. I'm sure I'll have an easier time getting dates then.
In the meantime I think I need to focus on building good habits, and stop cringing about how my creative work is not Good Enough so I can actually work on it long enough to refine it. And goddamn do I need this vacation that's coming up.