Noticed that I am extremely tuned out of media discussions bc of Maoism-Autism 
, but that sometimes I need to engage products, because I can't be picky about the battlefields. Vidya was a maladaptive coping mechanism for [fun and exciting] childhood 
for me, so I view old stuff with a distorted perspective and new stuff, I neither have the money nor the time for anything RPG or timesink wise. Same for anime, shows, movies and other stuff.
Now I don't want to be left out of these convos (Read: Struggle sessions about the cultural meaning of thing X or Y) entirely but is there any way to get back up on what a cultural product was about, preferably in-depth and critically?
I am in angry space ngl. Not bc of you, more got reminded that people hated my guts and will continue to do so and it's on me to fix my issues
I've been there and it was the advice I'm giving you here (among other things) that helped me do just that. But you still have a right to your anger; just be healthy with it.
yeah, yeah. I think it boiled to some conviction that society will not accept me and adapting to them is rewarding them for their bullying, so I always prefered being able to humiliate and hurt opponents in arguments. Something this site is no stranger to.
Even most NT people are constantly twisting themselves into knots to be the person society expects them too, though their pretzel isn't as knotted. A little bit of that is healthy, really - prosocial behavior it's fundamentally about compromise. But it's easy, especially for ND people, to get way too twisted
I am not completely rejecting social stuff, but I do it on my terms. none of their cruel little social games anymore where it ends up in bullying somebody.
Good luck out there, comrade.