Two years ago I saw this this video about ADHD in adulthood through some post on hexbear and experienced a certain... feeling that there was puzzle piece missing to my utterly disjointed, disorganised, unmotivated life. Thank you to whoever posted that video. I owe you so much.

One and a half years ago I started going to a self help ADHD group in my town.

One year ago I got a lucky appointment by a new psychiatrist and started my diagnosis.

Two months later he confirmed my diagnosis and I got started on Elvanse (Vyvanse/Lisexamphetamine).

For the first time in my life I am not on a permanent collision course with whatever I am doing. I go to work, mostly on time and do it well. I can write an email or make an appointment without agonizing for hours. I do the dishes and clean my floor before it's disgusting. I only lost my wallet and phone once and even found them again. And I learn to structure and shape my surroundings and my schedule so that it works for me. I still fail often, but don't fall into the spiral of doom that would so often over take me, when failing before.

But the most important thing is this: I am not utterly miserable anymore when I wake up, agonizing over the day in front of me, over all the little tasks that seem insurmountable. I know it can be done, one step at a time. If not today then tomorrow.

Just had to get it out. If you wanna share or ask something about ADHD things, this could be a place.