It could just be that my brain has been totally fried by 10+ years of depression, but after doing some research and a few self evaluation things, I think I might have at least mild ADHD. The exact symptoms and their severity will have to be sorted out with a therapist, but I figure my life story lines up with the experience of some adults with undiagnosed ADHD -

• Huge underachiever through middle/high school and college
• Classes I fail follow the same pattern of first I forget to start/can't start assignment and it snowballs from there
• Horribly disorganized, fidgety, and restless my entire life, and can only focus on certain things if I mess with something else (like solving a rubiks cube constantly during a zoom lecture)
• Tend to zone out and lose track of unstimulating conversations (like parents talking about chores, for example)
• Can't hold a job for shit
• Takes me days to sit down and do important things like apply for stuff, register for class, shop insurance plans
• And yes I guess I do hyperfocus on things at times and I'm extremely upset by interruptions of any kind

I feel like I've been the same way my entire life but I was never diagnosed because I was a very quiet, manageable kid in school - now that a lot of shit is on me as an adult, things are noticeably spiraling out of control.

All these tendencies have contributed to the mass of failure that is my life in one way or another. And there was probably a better way to synthesize all that, but I'm struggling to find the effort right now. Anyway, I'm sure some of you can relate on some level so I want to ask -

How effective has treatment been for you? Did medication make a big positive change in these or similar symptoms or was it more subtle? How much more control do you have over yourself and your life now?