If I'm being completely honest, I dont really believe we have free will. Or we do, but in an almost entirely meaningless way on a civilizational scale. While you might be able to make small choices, material conditions and the flow of history ultimately decide the course of your life. We're all just products of our environment which none of us can change on our own, and as much as we can change our environment as a collective is decided upon by current conditions which are determined by oast conditions, etc. Basically i think the entirity of history was determined at the big bang, and were all just along for the ride.
free will is probablty not a real thing, and tbh that makes me feel a whole lot better about things; i'm not a fuckup and certain actions weren't failures if there was no realistic alternative to whatever happened. my anxity got so much better when i realised all this.
"I didn't punch you in the face. The Big Bang did. Why are you mad at me?"