Yeah people forget that you can just use testing as a normal rolling release lol. But even then I don’t really care if most of my system is on the latest version or not. Like I don’t care if some random library or service that was installed as a dependency is a couple of releases behind upstream or whatever I just care that it works and that it does whatever it is that it’s supposed to do, and debian is really good at that and you still get all the bug fixes and security updates on stable anyway. Plus, if I actually want the latest version of something I can just get it from testing anyway
Yeah, I don’t use the women’s room because I’m still officially boymoding and I don’t think I pass but using the men’s room is getting to be really awkward. I try and go during class when it’s probably empty
Getting both the flu and covid shots at the same time was probably a bad idea especially since I haven’t been feeling great anyway lately. My whole body aches and I have a fever
It might be a good idea to call them and make sure you’re on their wait list or whatever. They’re probably just waiting to call you when they have a spot open but it can’t hurt to check. Also, diy isn’t as scary as it seems; it’s pretty straightforward
I keep getting nosebleeds and I wonder if I’m losing too much blood. I like genuinely feel a little lightheaded but I can’t tell if that’s because I’m sleep deprived and overworked
I miss talking to people but I'm finding it kind of stresses me out, on top of being a problem for my focus/time management skills. I'm such a fucking mess person, I'm less high strung and weird but the edges of my sense of self, the firmness of my self image, start to soften and go wobbly without other people. Socialising, talking, "You" is also the reflection of yourself in other people, what they see of you. I am without reflections to ponder and my brain is very very weird at this minute.
I get this. I’ve struggled with social anxiety my entire life and talking to people and being around them is difficult and draining but I start to get depressed if I go too long without talking to anyone
I put off transitioning for 10+ years. Some of that was things beyond my control, some of it was me being too scared/depressed to do anything, and some of it was thinking that things were in the way when they really weren’t. I don’t know how much can be attributed to each of those or what the difference is, but I spent every one of those years where I wasn’t too dissociated to care blaming myself for not transitioning sooner and I still do it sometimes. I don’t really have an answer on how to deal with those feelings except to say that at a certain point you have to just pick up the pieces and keep moving. I’ll never get those years back, or the childhood I could have had if things were different, but I’m here now and I get to become myself at last
especially since I haven’t been feeling great anyway lately. My whole body aches and I have a fever
I must collect more datapoints
I put off transitioning for 10+ years. Some of that was things beyond my control, some of it was me being too scared/depressed to do anything, and some of it was thinking that things were in the way when they really weren’t. I don’t know how much can be attributed to each of those or what the difference is, but I spent every one of those years where I wasn’t too dissociated to care blaming myself for not transitioning sooner and I still do it sometimes. I don’t really have an answer on how to deal with those feelings except to say that at a certain point you have to just pick up the pieces and keep moving. I’ll never get those years back, or the childhood I could have had if things were different, but I’m here now and I get to become myself at last
My tits really hurt. I guess this is just something that happens when I get a cold now
Edit: god this really feels like a monkey’s paw curse. Jokes on them though cause I can take it
Edit 2: KITTY NO!! DONT STEP THERE!!!