nemmybun [she/her]

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  • nemmybun [she/her]
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    togamedevMy experience with Godot so far
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    3 months ago

    I knew a little JS before this but not very much. Just enough to supplement or make small changes to other people's work. The basic concepts of GDscript I understood without problems, anything beyond that is a process



  • nemmybun [she/her]
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    togamedevMy experience with Godot so far
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    3 months ago

    Not too long. I started with Godot 3 a couple years ago, got distracted, and I'm only now getting back into Godot 4. So far I've only done like a handful of tutorials and made a few basic template games from that so maybe 4 or 5 weeks total. I'm also not very experienced with coding so it's been a struggle. I have a vague idea of what needs to happen to make my game ideas work, like on a high level, but I have a really hard time figuring out how to piece it together and the tuts didn't really help with that.

    At least I'm much more confident in creating assets when I get to that part.











  • VATS made sense in 1 & 2 due to the third-person isometric design. It feels clunky and shoehorned in a first-person setting. The gunplay in vanilla is awful but mods fix that and make it a proper shooter in a way Bethesda can't seem to manage.

    I understand the philosophy of carry weights but fiddling with inventories in Beth games has never been engaging to me. And the mods add a lot of new stuff so it compound the problem. What's the point of adding new stuff if you're not picking it up?




  • I'm playing Tale of Two Wastelands, a conversion mod that glues FO3 and FNV together and changes some stuff up. I installed a ton of mods on top so it's a smooth experience and everything flows much better. Between looting on hover, removing VATS in favor of bullet time, and removing weights from all items (sorry Bethesda fans but I hate inventory management), the experience is more continuous and immersive. Getting a lot of nostalgia from the Capital Wasteland since I haven't played FO3 since it came out like... 10 years ago? Yeah we'll go with that. Don't correct me I don't wanna know

    This is my first ever week on an adderall prescription and I found out the hard way how dangerous it is to mix with video games

    Oh and I feel like this image added by a perk mod would make a good emoji with some editing and repositioning

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    Fallout show got me in the mood for the wasteland. I wanted to try something different so I followed some mods guides to glue FO3 and NV together plus a plethora of bug fixes, optimizations and rebalancing. I think there's a little bit of new content too. It took a few grueling nights of installing mod after mod but I'm finally ready to play. I hope the effort was worth it!



  • late night blehposting

    Sometimes I feel sad about starting HRT in my 30s. I feel like I'll always regret spending my 20s trying so desperately to live up to everyone's expectations while disregarding my own. Not even fully understanding what I wanted because I wouldn't listen to myself. I wouldn't allow myself the truth. Told myself to just keep going, it didn't matter which direction. Every direction is away from where I was, who I was. Gaslighted myself. Ignored that voice until I couldn't any longer. Drowned her out with drink and drugs until that stopped working too. It came to a point where there was no more distractions and no more escape. Some eggs crack gracefully from within. But eggs that crack under external pressure only fall to pieces. Whether I was ready or not, I had to find myself and put myself back together in a configuration that fit me.

    I am glad I ultimately figured it out even if it was not in the graceful way and I'm happy with myself and how far I've come even if it took me awhile. Though I can't help but wonder how things would be now if I had been stronger and braver and ready to cut ties sooner. If I had started HRT in my 20s (or through some miracle, my teens), would I feel better about myself if testosterone had less time to do its damage? Would I feel like less of an outlier and more connected if I was closer to the average age of the wider community when I started? How different would my life be now if only I could've found my way sooner and not worried so much about the opinions of others? Would I be spending less of my time writing all this self-absorbed sadsack shit online an hour after I should be asleep and more time touching grass? (probably not that last one)






















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