It has been way too long since I've blessed my existence with some Tracy Chapman, god damn. You never know what you're missing until you have it. This girl is in heaven
All I can think about right now is estrogen and how much I want it in me. I was supposed to be on my way to getting scheduled for an HRT consultation, which they said would probably be in January, but it's been several weeks and I haven't heard anything from them. I don't even have an appointment scheduled.
Now with recent events considered, I'm questioning whether or not I should just do DIY. The issue is I'm scared of messing something up and much prefer having a doctor help me out.
Huh. I actually feel gay. That's a new one. It's hard to describe since literally nothing's changed except the word lesbian feels right now. I don't have to be jealous of lesbians anymore!
I got told one time that I'd be a cute girl if I was one and that did something to me. It's impressive how long I was able to hold out before realizing my transness
I'm looking up at the mirror on my bedroom door and I see a girl on her bed. It's freaking me out a bit but in a good way. This same human I've become so acquainted with seeing, I'm actually successfully conceptualizing her as a woman without going "ughghg but I look like a guy." This is so bizarre, but sooooooo cool
It was something like "okay well if you ever change your mind, let me know"
My sister is great and I was immediately talking to her about gender stuff once I began seriously questioning again. I actually just got off a phone call with her right before I made that post on this com that brought me into tracha and eventually here.
Thinking about the time I texted my sister "okay but what if I was trans" one evening, and then the next morning followed it up with a good 'ol "lol nvm."
I tried looking around on YouTube for voice stuff but I wasn't really sure what I was looking for, and I'm scared of hurting myself. I'm not really sure how to do it safely. Are there any resources you would specifically recommend?
I have come to realize that I am significantly more affected by dysphoria than I thought. I realized how much of a prison guyness feels like and how much I hate feeling like one. I feel like I'm always a little bit aware of what I look like and what I sound like and it makes human interaction feel so much harder.
misgendering, dysphoria
Ugh I just misgendered myself and it sucks and now I'm conceptualizing myself as a dude which is frustrating. I want to go back :(