• GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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    Trying to distance yourself from them like that is still a massive problem. You have to remember you have all the same emotions, impulses, and potential that they do. You are made of the same stuff, in the same composition. You simply had the right conditions occur in your life to make you a leftist, not a liberal. Once you think your different then them, better than them, you've lost solidarity with other workers. There is no difference between your essence, you don;t have a leftist soul as opposed to a liberal soul. You exist in a different way, but the same is true between you and I, and we are both leftists. You have to remember you could be just as evil and wicked as them, you are the same species with the same blood and bones, and your fate will be the same in the end, whether your spirits wither under capitalism or prosper under socialism. You are a human being, we are capable of the holocaust, and we are capable of curing polio, and the October revolution, and the moon landing. Learn to love and embrace your humanity and your fellow human beings, or you will never achieve a worker's world.

    • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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      3 years ago

      It's certainly not 'essential, but then neither is the difference between me and a chimp, or me and a cat. Different strings of proteins growing in different animals. I'm well aware of the awful shit I'm capable of doing.

      It's less about setting myself apart, more about expressing how alienated and other I feel about the whole mess. How much I feel there isn't a world for me. I built myself around ideas of what's right and useful and figuring out what's good to so I can make the world better soon can be a better happier person, then built a conscience to guide me, however haphazardly and ineptly, in that. About being entirely alienated from an entrenched world of people who find a system to be a part of, any system, no matter how awful, and build their self and 'conscience' around defending that.

      Obviously I loathe them, at least a bit; it's destructive and awful. My statements of being apart can't help but reflect that bitterness, but it's not about essential difference, it's about being isolated in a sea of creatures that want to be CHUDs, that choose it over humanity every single fucking day-i recognize they have that choice, and if I hate them, it's because of that. It's about being alone, it's about having everything I've ever tried to build crushed by unspeakably petty monsters who, even when they're friendly, literally can't comprehend the most basic concepts of decency or compassion or justice-which is really gross when you try to date and someone you were just thinking about touching reveals they literally can't register a simple concept you've just uttered, despite knowing more than enough prerequisite information, like it literally just skips out of their brain. It's about forgetting what friendship and love and comeraderie even feel like, and wondering if I ever actually knew. It's about being too jaded to even really seek human connection, because everywhere I look is just more of that. Every time I try, every stranger I see, is just more of that.

      It's not about wishing them ill; they do plenty of that themselves. If they were so different, they would be harder to hate. It's easier to forgive a dog that bites or a cat that pisses on my lunch than a human who does the same.

      • GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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        3 years ago

        you keep operating within a false dichotomy of chud/humanity, myself/them, mind-working/lazy acceptance. You are also treating justice and decency like absolutes, they are not. They are products of the culture you live in. as are these people, as are you. Also, you're not alone. Do you see where you are? Stop putting up walls around yourself, and decrying your isolated state. Join an org, meet more like minded individuals, honestly just get some help, you're not talking like someone who is mentally sound. I'm not saying this to gaslight you or say "she's insane, ignore what she's saying." I'm saying the intense alienation you are describing is unhealthy and you need to deal with it. Also, a lot of libs can comprehend it. There;s a reason we don;t just call every lib a chud. Lots of people are well meaning, just too brainwashed to break out of liberal thought. Yes, it sucks we always have to put ourselves out there, always get burned to teach just the one out of ten we'll reach. But the important thing is that we can win. Focus on victory.

        • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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          3 years ago

          It's not a dichotomy. It's a bunch of entitiesthathave made very extreme choices somewhat pervasively, and another entity that has made very different choices as much as it could.

          It would not be healthy to identify with something so thoroughly hostile to me.

          I don't know how not alone I am here, but I haven't been here long and have formed no close connections. It does not change the fact of interacting with libs.

          I haven't found any active orgs in my region. I check periodically.

          I tried therapy, two psychologists in a row literally could not comprehend being part of an unjust system when it came up. They just, like, blue screened. I'm well aware that this is unhealthy; I wouldn't be upset if it wasn't, but you can't magically conjure a solution into existence with wishes and fairy dust. Sometimes all the food is gone, and all the leather shoes are eaten, and you can't find any rats, and you just starve for a bit. Hello rat friend, would you like to share a pot of tea?

          'well meaning' in a framework of 'justifying being a monster', yes. I find conversations with avowed monsters and literal psychopaths more rewarding and more sources of genuine connection than libs.

          I don't know if I believe victory is possible at this point. With the climate going how it is, and nuclear arsenals increasing, I feel like the hour is getting pretty damn late. I don't need to believe I can win to keep going, that's some lib hopeium bullshit, but I do feel isolated, I do feel other, and I do get much better reactions from libs when I interact with them sans respect, treating them like the objects they strive to be rather than the beings capable and deserving of respect honesty and autonomy they damn well should be.

          Is it right to rob someone of their precious chains against their will? To take the only thing they really own while they scream and spit and claw at me in protest? The only thing they ever learned to make for themselves, and then promptly cauterized the parts of their brain that can take new information? The only thing they really love and cherish? Fuck if I know. I just try to plant gardens and shit so somebody can have a snack and shade after eviction.

          • GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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            3 years ago

            There's a lot going on here, and I don't know you outside this interaction, so I can't pass judgement or determine what you are doing right or wrong. All I can say about this in particular is I hope you can find someone who understands what you feel.

            • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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              3 years ago

              I will or I won't, to whatever degree. Libs will remain frustrating sources of alienation.

              Best wishes and crap. Or... Whatever kind of wishes you'd prefer; I'd hate to be prescriptive. Maybe you want kind of a shitty day to make a good dramatic arc? Not judging.

    • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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      3 years ago

      Also, I really don't give a shit about 'workers'. People, things that can suffer not suffering pointlessly, the creation of meaning and expression, the flourishing of higher and more diverse consciousness. But workers? No fucks given.

      • GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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        3 years ago

        who do you think are the people suffering? whose creativity is constantly stifled, and consciousness ignored? It's not the wealthy, I cna tell you that.

        • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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          3 years ago

          It's easy to sympathize with the obvious direct victims suffering in the literal meat factories or whatever of capitalism's industrial horrors has been conjured in your mind today. And that's not wrong.

          But there are a couple things to keep in mind:

          When you hold a chain wound so tightly, you too are restricted, you too are held by the chain, on pain of death. Yeah, it's worse to be a slave, but even in slave states, the tension of oppression creates a kind of cage for the masters. It's nicer, sure, but it's still a fucking cage. An argument could be made that it's a more complete kind of cage-the slave loses nothing of themself when their physical chains are broken, when they can laugh and cry and run without the masters whip biting into their flesh. But the master, and the overseer, have built themselves and their consciences to be blind to the humanity in their fellow homos (convince me it's sapiens, convince me that name fits), to be disconnected and terrified of freedom, to be uncomprehending of their own humanity compassion and love, incapable of any relation not touched with dominance and brutality.

          If libs are people, then the masters are just as worthy and needy of liberation as their slaves. Not as urgently in need, perhaps. Certainly not as accepting. But worthy.

          And the surplus class, those kept away from the means of production and brutalized, a constant threat simultaneously of surplus labor and what will happen to you if you don't work, and a 'lower' thing to disdain, a shoe to step in so you don't feel the rock bottom we all know you're on quite so viscerally, so you sympathize with those above you and see the means of your (assuming you're a worker) oppression as being your protection-from them.

          I'm of the opinion that they should be helped first if possible. Even if it's harder. The 'workers' are people and deserve more than they get, certainly, but they are in less urgent need.

          Myopic focus on "workers" strikes me as cruel myopic and selfish. You can do better. Or you can't, and I'm disappointed in you I guess.

          • GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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            3 years ago

            Thanks, I'm familiar with Hegel's master/slave hypothesis. The point of communism is to make it so there are no masters, but there are workers. the workers decide how their labor is applied and receive their benefit from it. We will either kill the owners, or make them workers. They are helped by becoming workers, and workers gain the rights kept to the owner class before.

            • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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              3 years ago

              What if you can't work? Or are sick of it? Are you still a person? Why shouldn't this be allowed?

              Again, this "worker" fetishization excludes a lot of people, reeks of Calvinist bullshit.

              • GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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                3 years ago

                I have at no point said people who aren't workers aren't persons or lose their humanity. The owner class really isn't made up of those incapable of working. However. lots of people in the working class are. Most people are able to, and in fact want to be productive in some capacity. Making art, cooking, cleaning, sex work, and emotional labor are all legitimate fields of work that contribute to society. lot of people are doing these things now and not being recognized for their efforts, who would be under communism. And it would be a lot easier to say to everyone at your factory who know exactly what your doing "I'm taking a month or two off, I'm feeling burnt out" than it is to say that to a boss who will replace you in a second. And for the small handful of people who genuinely are just completely unable to produce anything do to physical or mental blocks, their community would take care of them. Humans have done that for each other since before we could farm the land.

                • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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                  Totally! But the value of a person is not in their labor, and especially not in their work. That's the main point I'm driving home here.

                  Ugh, value, capitalism gets in everything. Virtue? That's a better wird. The virtue of a person does not exist entirely,bor even primarily, in their labor. Only their utility to a system lies primarily in that, which should only ever be a thing we make to enable human flourishing.

                  • GreenTeaRedFlag [any]
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                    3 years ago

                    Where, please actually quote, exactly did I say anything about the measure of someone's virtue/value? I said we need a worker's world. I say we need it because owners hold back the worker's lives in bitter drudgery, and everyone would do better when they received recognition and compensation for their labors, rather than owners siphoning it. Here's a question for you: why are you so obsessed with the measure of a man? who is human and who is not, how we measure the value of a human being, how the humanity is observed. What is your ideology? Are you anarchist, ML, MLM, Juche, some mix? Even if you don't fully identify with one or another, give me an idea of what theories you subscribe to.

                    • starvedhystericnudes [she/her]
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                      3 years ago

                      Again,all for the workers. I'm suggesting more inclusive language and ideas. It should not be a 'workers' world, but world without exploitation or (excessive? The current paradigm of personal?) ownership.

                      Most of the work I've done that mattered for more than five minutes was with people that had been thrown away by society and excluded from literally emergency rooms, you could set one of them outside a reported shooting and if the paramedics showed up before the cops, they would see them and probably just leave. A scared mostly useless kid who had read a lot of moral but not much explicitly political philosophy tossed out into the world. I ended up reading some theory later, but mostly I critically analyzed shit-mostly systems. I have fav philosophers, but not many favs who pitch particular politics. broadly speaking, partially from my time working with tech shit, I'm a principled illegalist. I tend to prefer looking at shit myself to trusting some dusty fuck who's been dead for centuries, and use them mostly as jumping off points instead of foundations. Neitzsche might be the exception, that one's in there pretty deep, fav philosopher, would absolutely go back in time to punch him in the face, might stop baby Hitler with adoption paperwork or something while I'm there IDK.

                      More recently I've been painfully confronted with the fact that nobody changes unless they want to, and they never seem to want to, contemporaneous with some major losses and trauma, so for the past couple years I dunno exactly what I believe, except that some people will get very angry if you tell them the truth or treat them with respect, and also literally everything is sometimes literally on fire.

                      Who are you and what do you believe? Because it sounds like you only asked this so you could know how to appeal to me.