I want to be more mindful about the light I cast myself in. I leave myself little room to grow and it'd be beneficial to adventure my way to better self perception.
I have self esteem issues that have me avoid testing how I'll react to different scenarios. Whatever "wrong" means, I often assume I'll react "wrongly." I constantly shut down chances for myself to experience more things in life. Like when people give ideas for things I can do, I almost always reject them because I assume I'm incapable of doing those ideas.
Therapy if you can get it will help. Meds too if applicable. But the moment to moment things you can control is your thoughts and learn to tolerate distressing emotions. For thoughts look up "cognitive distortions". Learn them and journal them, then rewrite (literally) the "script" you tell yourself in those moments. Meditate on those scenarios and tell yourself the new "script" as a mantra.
Emotional tolerance is built through meditation/mindfulness.
A therapist will walk through these steps with you and take it to a deeper level too.