What are your thoughts on 2021 in personal life and in general?
This will go down for me as the worst year ever. I'd be hesitant to say rock bottom in terms of lows, but I won't because it can always get worse. I, uh, really don't see things turning around in the USA anytime soon.
Sorry to hear that comrade. This was one of the worst years for me as well. I'd say I hope that next year will be better but I said that every year and it just gets worse. Turns out that hope is worthless in hellworld.
At this point I can sort of deal with it getting worse, I mean it depends on what and how it gets bad, but I just want my grief over mom passing to let up.
the only thing that will help that is time. it's just a fact. I think the healthiest and most helpful thing to do is to accept the fact that you're going to be sad for a while, but also not to be frightened by it because you know that it will pass with time. just engage with your sadness for what it is.
it will probably take about 6 months to really let up. that sucks, but it's also important to recognize because the context helps you avoid a doom spiral.
Please tell this to my dad because he wants me over it now.
I can certainly point you to plenty of authoritative resources that state this, but from what you've told me of your dad, it doesn't seem like that would matter to him.
No it would not matter to him. Matter of fact, he's already moved on past mom, wow what a champ!
ngl i healed a lot mentally this year. i actually very much enjoy that i didnt come in contact with many people, people seemed to very much enjoy invading my personal space before covid. :sadness:
been feeling happy very regularly. reminds me of when i first started transitioning a long time ago
It was very mixed. The first half descended into some life threatening lows, but I was able to find a safe living situation (now just me and my cat). Thanks to that move I was able to make a lot of progress in terms of mental health and looking positively towards the future. I also accomplished a lot that I've been putting off, so I'm wrapping up this year much more at ease and hopeful
Mine was garbage lol. I'm trying to think of a single good thing that happened to me this year and I'm unable to. I can easily think of 10 bad things that happened though. My band broke up, I got shitcanned (currently working a shit job that I hate), my cat died and so on.
This year was definitive proof that every year from now is just going to be a repeat of 2020 except worse. It's fucking bleak. :doomer:
My year was exceptional! I’m really coming into my own and the future has so much in store for me and my personal growth. Couldn’t have done it without this wonderful country.
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I got a new boss this year and they really put me on the treadmill to get a lot of shit done. No planning, just throwing out impossible deadlines and watching me struggle to meet them while training up a whole new team to become familiar with the codebase.
I really fell into the trap of working as hard as I could and sacrificing my personal life, hobbies, and fitness, to the point where I am in the early stages of hypertension. I was not allowed to take a vacation because of deadlines, until the end of the year where I would have to use it or lose it, and when I finally took the vacation, I finally realized "Why the fuck am I doing this to myself"? After I came back from vacation I significantly pulled back from work emotionally. If they don't plan things, well then it's not my fault if things don't get done when they want them done. It's not my fault that I am the single point of failure for the codebase. It's not my fault they don't listen to what I say, and not my fault when what I warned them would happen, happens. So, now I just log in, do the bare minimum to keep myself out of trouble (which is still 10x more than the rest of the team), and put my energy back into my personal life, and I am far happier.
The point of this story is not to solicit pity, because I am well aware that my situation is probably one of the more comfortable and secure ones out there. The point is to show that, mentally there are many things that you can do to injure yourself or make yourself unhealthy. I literally fucked up my own blood pressure by being so stressed out and anxious.
Try and remember that if you died, your boss would immediately replace you and wouldn't even remember you ever existed. Put all your energy into your personal well being and those close to you.
burned out again but what else is new
next year I pledge I'm gonna extract myself from the cursed project I'm on
Same as every other year from here on: Not as good as last year not as bad as next year.
I have to wonder how long I’ve been just an asset to them.
the whole time :amerikkka:
Most of it was really bad which I had almost forgotten about. I got sick for half of the year (not covid as far as I'm aware of) and didn't really get to consistently do anything until August. Wanted to see one of my best friends in person but was sick at the time, and now he's busy with work, kids, and cautious of covid (:amerikkka-clap:).
For the second half of the year I finished a cover I started in 2019, recorded half of a remake of song I made almost 9 years ago, started another fun cover, and am in the process redoing the drums of another very old song. I got some good slop this year i.e Halo, Zomboid, Matrix 4 and that anime movie we watched on cytube that I couldn't finish. I also saw a lot of cute kittens recently.
Still go through cyclical bouts of depression and loneliness, but I feel like if I complain too much everything will just get worse faster.
