Saying “quit meth” is cheating + I’m kinda trying anyways.
I’ve always had problems with food/eating since I was a kid, but it’s gotten pretty suck. I think part of what made me stop being able to see myself as femme was, in fact, becoming so thin, with my gaunt face and bony hips and what I think is some sagging skin from rapid weight loss (I’d really like to get rid of that shit too, especially on my neck).
Last couple weeks I’ve been turning things around, starting to eat more, but I have a difficult time with appetite, and this pickiness I’ve had since I was a kid. Most things I could buy ingredients for and “make at home” are unappealing. I keep going to the store to buy food and walk out with fucking candy.
If I go too long without food I have trouble starting to eat again. Try eating like half an apple. Get a little fuel in your reactor to get your digestive system going. Wait half an hour or an hour and then try eating something more substantial. If you can't just finish the apple. "Eating restores appetite" is the idea. It can also help when you are sick and don't feel like eating anything. Soup is always good if you aren't feeling up to eating. You can sip the broth and let that kinda fill you up, you'll get some nutrients, and it will feel warm and soothing on your tummy.