Saying “quit meth” is cheating + I’m kinda trying anyways.
I’ve always had problems with food/eating since I was a kid, but it’s gotten pretty suck. I think part of what made me stop being able to see myself as femme was, in fact, becoming so thin, with my gaunt face and bony hips and what I think is some sagging skin from rapid weight loss (I’d really like to get rid of that shit too, especially on my neck).
Last couple weeks I’ve been turning things around, starting to eat more, but I have a difficult time with appetite, and this pickiness I’ve had since I was a kid. Most things I could buy ingredients for and “make at home” are unappealing. I keep going to the store to buy food and walk out with fucking candy.
The appetite takes a while to return. Like your stomach literally shrinks from extended periods of little eating.
I've been able to put on 35lbs since quitting stimulants ~6 months ago, so I really do think that is a big factor. If you're able to use a blender, something like this combined with peanut butter, milk, bananas, can really help with getting calories without the feeling of fullness or the "ick" I was getting with heavy meals while I was using and shortly afterwards. Honestly, you could just use water if you're not able to store milk.
They do sell these kind of shakes pre-made, but they are ridiculously expensive.
Fuck