I’ve read about how it’s typically difficult for adults with autism to remain employed, and I can completely see why. Never been officially diagnosed, but I’m pretty sure it’s a foregone conclusion in the way that I constantly over analyze every action taken by my co-workers and supervisors

So yeah there’s definitely some ND thought here, but I also can’t seem to get past how fake everything feels. And it feels like I have to play along with their little game where they all assume different personalities between the hours of 9-5 instead of being themselves. Because contrary to popular belief, individuals aren’t beneficial to capitalism, drones are

I hate my brain

  • spacecadet [he/him]
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    2 years ago

    This reads very familiar, I'm sorry you have to feel those feelings. Particularly the line about doubting ever having an authentic human connection with anyone, including family. I wish I had advice but I do want to offer sympathy. It's so hard to curb the inward focus instinct that depression cultivates.