I mean I definitely have my monkey brain moments. When I really sit and reflect on climate change I get a deep existential dread that's pretty hard to shake. I have my own struggles and anxieties surrounding addiction so I understand you there. Especially considering how many of my family succumbed to their various addictions. I know it's not good for me and will likely shorten my life but it's already been shortened outside of my control. At least getting drunk is a nice feeling in the present