I'm a former heroin addict (9 years clean in August) but I also have severe fibro and can't even stand that long. I'm also job hunting after losing my last job because I went to the hospital (for psych reasons) and had to call off a whole week of work. I've read up and it seems like what I should get is red vein but I have no experience with kratom.
Nearly died, figuratively, trying to do the scoop and swallow. Immediately triggered my gag reflex and I was coughing clouds of it. Your ex is a trooper