I’m on my second unemployed time this year—the first due to covid closures at the store I worked at, and now, most recently, because I lost my job—and self care has been the first thing to fly out the window. Shaving, nails, hair/makeup, and even changing clothes each day all feel overwhelming, and I had no idea how much that shit was affecting me. The shittiest part is that I haven’t been able to see my therapist for most of this year. Yeah, so it really hit me in the feels when she talked about having to start over, sometimes multiple times.

I did just deactivate my FB, so that’s helping me with the envy thing...but tbh I’m /so/ fucking envious of my trans friends who (from where I sit) pass, and are pretty and sexy, and I feel like I’ll never be good enough at being trans to pass. Obviously that’s my shit, not theirs, but I have yet to see the calming benefits of applying logic to depression/anxiety lol