I had a really long and stressful day but it was productive and now Rosie is curled up in my lap while I play my vidya and listen to my slop
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Hello new trans mega 
I went for two different walks today and my legs are feeling p o w e r f u l
Night walk had a pretty moon view 
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Aww, thank you! 
I forgot about making the comment too, so rereading this all kinda helped me mentally get my footing with some recent uncomfortable stuff with some family relationships.
Black Ops II on 360 lol 
(I like to play something familiar and mindless while I listen to slop. 5v5 botmatch kill confirmed where you set kills to 1 each and confirms to 2, play to 300, 15 minutes, custom class picks raised to 17, and the FJH-18 AA banned. I wish I had the DLC, idk if it's even possible to get now on 360. Did they ever release a GOTY kinda version that came with all the DLC?)
Squier Jagmaster 
Update: ordering the hat was a huge ordeal for one purchase but I did it because I'm stubborn and wanted it bad enough
Fuck the internet and everything needing like 3 layers of codes and confirmation and backup accounts
I jumped through like two hours of bullshit hoops for one goddamn item
Does the music com not allow non-English posts?? I tried posting something that had Finnish lyrics and it kept saying "language not allowed." Am I doing something wrong? The language options when you go to make a post only has "English" and "Undetermined."
How do you think 
got out of Leavenworth?
It wasn't because of 
appreciate it
had a funny dream that kinda cheered me up last night
I'm a kid on my baseball team, flew out to the warning track to end the inning batting, have to put away my bat and helmet/batting gloves and get my fielding glove and am kinda late to go out to left field to warm up
Center fielder is being a dumbass and doesn't know if he's supposed to play catch with me or the RF and gets confused
My dad is by the dugout over at third, I'm supposed to throw to him and CF is supposed to throw to RF
"this is why you're not the starting pitcher, you're slow and lazy! you killed the rally last inning too! keep your eye on the ball!"
dad turns around to complain about me to the coach
take the ball and crow hop and fuckin' chuck a bullet right at him as he's facing towards the dugout
Drills him right in the back of the head with like a 90mph throw
Makes the cartoon coconut thunk sound effect and drops his ass like a sack of potatoes
"keep your eye on the ball dad!" 
Woke up grinning
I hate her so fucking much but basically being like "sorry I was too nice and good at Getting Stuff Done for your stinky old loser club, buh-byeee" as a resignation kinda rocks
hope she gets bitten by a venomous snake doing a marathon or something though
oh shit oh fuck
castle doctrine applies to crawlspaces, right?
fetch me my varmint gun
Gonna order the hat I've had on my wishlist for awhile today 
Might put together that gift for the friend I ghosted and write a nice letter and send that
Want to try going for a walk, I was trying to at least get a couple miles in each day but I've been kinda sick and haven't gone the last couple days
Should tidy up my bedroom but idk if I feel up to it, it's always really mentally draining for me and I'm still kinda under the weather
trans femmes can BLJ irl
from what I can recall, like two weeks to a month is when I really grasped "hey, I feel different in a cool new/weird way"
Crawlspace rat scratching loudly at the underside of the bathtub
Sick, who needs sleep anyway
Was the writing on the wall for her polling wise, or was blocking anything good from ever happening in the senate eating too much into her wine time or whatever?
Terrified of personal intimacy and being vulnerable
Desperately touch starved and want to be held and lovingly cuddled for hours
this pseudo-hermit shit sucks but I'm so afraid of putting myself out there looking a relationship and don't feel up to it with where I'm at in my life right now
I want a partner to love me so bad though, I'm so lonely and have virtually zero positive human relationships irl currently
I love my cats so much but people need other people sometimes and I don't have anyone and my heart hurts
It keeps me up at night sometimes just ruminating about every relationship I've screwed up and what could've been
I can be cruel to myself sometimes but deep down I do think I'm a decent person with a lot of love to give and think there must be someone out there who'd mesh with my weirdo queer self perfectly but I have no clue how I'm ever gonna meet them with where I'm at now
Oafs need some romance sometimes too 
Ironic