PaX [comrade/them, they/them]

Very tired nerd who doesn't know how to speak correctly

Ask me about floppa, Plan 9, or computer architecture or anything computers really (if you want)

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If I don't reply to you it's probably cuz I'm too tired, sorry :(

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  • When challenged none of it is, "ahhhh you dumb tankies fell for my bait smuglord"

    When not challenged all of it is

    What part of it actually is? Probably all of it, at least somewhat lol

    funny-clown-hammer loves to exist in this space

    Strangely,

    Never believe that anti-Semites are completely unaware of the absurdity of their replies. They know that their remarks are frivolous, open to challenge. But they are amusing themselves, for it is their adversary who is obliged to use words responsibly, since he believes in words. The anti-Semites have the right to play. They even like to play with discourse for, by giving ridiculous reasons, they discredit the seriousness of their interlocutors. They delight in acting in bad faith, since they seek not to persuade by sound argument but to intimidate and disconcert. If you press them too closely, they will abruptly fall silent, loftily indicating by some phrase that the time for argument is past.

    a very familiar space sartre-pipe


  • Same here, ty Care-Comrade

    Had one of our just-unbanned users drop a rly heartfelt reply about how the site helped her realize she was trans and get through some rly bad times in her life and it upset her a lot to see the behavior of some of the admins

    It's rly silly drama but the site has legit helped people

    Okay I gotta log off fr now, am tired and this is starting to loop back around from upsetting to hilarious lol, bad state to be in for sincere talking and I spend enough energy on this

    Edit: Post I mentioned is here if you wanna read: https://hexbear.net/comment/5618885


  • You're right tbh

    It rarely came up and ofc this being Hexbear it's tangled in like 7 layers of irony and sincerity, but the vibe I always got was that "TC69 thought" was beyond criticism and everyone who did have something to say in response was either in the group of transphobe wreckers who got purged by her (based, good (that they got purged)) and anyone left from that time who still remembered it, besides the """"legends"""" about her making everyone read based books, had stopped challenging it cuz of the aforementioned dogpiling

    Until today, now it seems TC69 has stepped down again, deleted her account, and her partner has been banned and people are talking about it and criticising her in the YET-ANOTHER megathread

    Wild day in niche bear-themed web forum history, the TC69 cult of personality has fallen?

    I hope all this shit is entertaining to the Lemmygradians at least lmao


  • I just read it meow-hug

    Based rejecting irony, embracing sincerity

    Idk maybe we are silly for liking the website and taking it seriously even if it helps us connect with other people, get through bad times, or realize we're trans........... butttt nahhhh actually lol, this idea that the only REAL, SERIOUS, NON-CRINGE social space is the Central Executive Committee of the Communist Party or something is much sillier

    Tbh..... you should repost it here under a CW spoiler, it's seriously very heartfelt, maybe what we need


  • I feel exactly the same way tbh, I can go to a trillion other sites if I wanna do endless smuglord "actually, it's kinda cringe that you care tbh" bits that also aren't a bit where "you win" if you can pretend to be the most cool and detached i'm-not-online-i'm-just-here-to-observe-the-onlineness type person (I am also missing the joke here), I like Hexbear cuz of the sincerity

    The misgendering ableist wrecker alts were rly exhausting tbh, especially when it seems like it's someone here doing it who has been banned for the same shit before multiple times but is still allowed to do it (as of now, I'm not in the admin chats so ofc idk for sure)


  • Idk tbh, regardless I feel like they don't have to be contradictory

    I come to this site for the shitposts and the genuine discussion and political education resources

    I should also mention the proposal post later also had statements from mods who said they proposed the idea cuz they thought "dunk" culture has "cishet white vibes", which...... idk, is maybe fair, Hexbear is rly white sometimes and I would hate for people to be put off by that (good reason to be put off ofc). It wasn't rly elaborated upon though


  • I feel like this is exactly the irony poisoned toxic attitude that has led to this getting so bad :/

    I wasn't around during the early days, heard lots of good things about TC69, purging transphobe wreckers and making people read is based :3

    But is kinda wild and not a good look that she showed up again one day, the biggest struggle sesh I have ever seen kicks off, Carcosa steps down, half-steps back up, then while they're on break probably cuz of this whole stressful ordeal on this site they steward for us, she becomes head admin(?) again and immediately she and many of the new admins get so deeply involved in an obviously bad-faith way in this struggle sesh to the point of like 20 or 30 people getting bans where even the Lemmygradians are noticing that the site is exploding lol but ohhh this is all a joke ofc :) but it's also not a joke and this site needs to get serious and we need more mega-purges but also reply here and I'll use an RNG to decide how long to ban you, and also other random people with the same reason in the modlog

    Now idk anymore, maybe this is what TC69-thought is


  • wonder-who-thats-for hehehe

    Tbh I just ate some decent food (after not rly eating anything for a few days cuz of external factors™ in my kinda bad life-situation rn), pet a cat, read your reply in the struggle sesh megathread, feeling less bad about the whole thing

    Really appreciate you genuinely just clarifying what happened including what the rest of the admin team saw, I feel like most of this is just rly bad communication primarily from admins/mods but also the rest of the users (sucked seeing Carcosa's decision get completely torn apart so badly that they tried to resign before the userbase rejected that lol, I hope they not too stalin-bummed about it especially cuz how much they do for our site regardless of this one thing). It's still been a total mess but it's nothing irreconcilable or unfixable

    10/10 perfect bad-good-good-bad bit 07, I hope your recovery from food poisoning is going well cat-trans

    Long live the cabal :3


  • Yeah we probablydefinitely all need to relax lol, regardless there is def criticism to be made about this whole behind-the-scenes adminning thing that developed after our chaotic first year needing to..... idk... have more democracy again? After this whole thing especially

    I just saw a bunch of people get unbanned now so idk, hard to keep track of it all

    I'm gonna go, like....... make a meal and do and think about something other than niche web forum drama now lol


  • The issue wasn't the name change, everyone was fine with that and it should be done cuz the term has a racist history

    The proposal that started all this was removing "/c/the_dunk_tank" (where you can post bad takes and mock them however you like but they can't be the bad takes of nobodies, so basically like shit_reactionaries_say) and "/c/the_dredge_tank" (for posting the bad takes of anyone, this was made after people got tired of seeing the lowest effort, repetitive, bad takes from random people so they could block the comm if they want) entirely and replacing them with "/c/counterpropaganda" (for posting instances of any reactionary rhetoric under the conditions that your post also had to include an essay countering the rhetoric) and "/c/gossip" (for posting only public figures' bad takes, without the essay), the arguments for and against are in the 1200 reply struggle sesh post lol

    Sry if you already know all this, I'm not sure how visible this has been to other instances lol

    Idk, I get the intention behind it but it became clear this was poorly thought out and was not what most of the userbase (or the most active?) wanted. In the past certain issues like this have been resolved by purges (like our mandatory pronouns and anti-transphobia and anti-misogyny stances) of anyone who disagreed or couldn't self-crit but this one does seem much more aimless and less concrete to me, to the extent it is even serious, tbh, idk :/


  • Am glad, would have stuck the whole ?chart=ljsljas;fjsa;lejfalsflkafahduashf URL parameter stuff on the end so the link would preserve settings but I wasn't sure that wouldn't dox me somehow cuz its not obvious what that actually is lol


  • Late-stage irony poisoning

    In addition to the first ban wave which was partially a bit or something cuz people requested to be banned so TC69 used a random number generator but also entries in the modlog that have the RNG stuff weren't people who requested it??, some of our admins are now banning their alts as a bit to start drama, other obvious alts are coming out to call it out and continue more drama, there's more but...... you get the idea :/

    Idk, this all started in an attempt to make our site more serious by replacing the_{dunk,dredge}_tank with higher effort alternatives and now that that didn't go through it's all a joke now

    Honestly I may log off for a while too, is not rly that funny to me :/ People on this site have literally fed me and my friend, kept us out of overdraft status on bank accts, I learned so much from reading stuff here or books I learned about from here, people have been housed cuz of this site, someone nearby legit offered to take care of one of my irl friend's pets when he was homeless for a bit, I met new friends here that I talk to every day. It's not a political party but it's not just a giant shitpost either, so idk where this is going :/

    I'm sure this looks even worse from the outside wowee, but it's okay, site has survived worse

    Like FuckyWucky mentioned, there is a lot of talking going on behind the scenes and no one outside rly knows what is going on sooooo..... we see what happens I guess




  • PaX [comrade/them, they/them]todoomerbird flu in LA wastewater
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    Purple line is H5 and it's almost alone, holy fuck agony-deep

    Idk maybe it's spurious somehow, I don't really know anything about like... epidemic detection through viral nucleic acids in wastewater but since we don't have a functioning public health system........

    View for yourself: https://data.wastewaterscan.org

    Are there any H5 influenza variants that circulate in humans? Ofc can't know if it is some kind of deadly human-adapted avian flu without more info. Or idk, does any significant amount of agricultural runoff end up in city wastewater?


  • Idk either tbh, I got moderating on my mind more than usual cuz of current site events™

    We moderate hornyposting by vibes alone and it's always been hard for me to tell where the line is on border-line, bit or not bit?, examples

    I guess if it's not bothering anyone thennnn lol

    Actually I guess this is pretty explicit lol

    Edit:

    Just outing myself as an anti-fun snitch rn xwx

    Fr though, idk, I have seen people say shit like this makes them uncomfortable and I get it



  • Did rly suck to see Carcosa be attacked so much in spite of all they do for the site :(

    Were people misgendering them? I didn't see any except one top-level post in the first thread which hopefully is removed now :(

    I hate this, removing the tanks was supposed to help the exact type of toxicity that this has now become, and admins, mods, and users are all feeding into it kitty-birthday-sad


  • PaX [comrade/them, they/them]toMainTC69 UPDATE: HOT OFF THE PRESSES
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    Frfr

    I understand the intentions behind the original proposed change but this is just upsetting now :(

    Gonna go touch grass (maybe, if my irl friend wants to go lol)

    Btw @CARCOSA@hexbear.net, I missed your reply to me in the first thread before it got locked, no hard feelings ofc meow-hug You're cool and am sorry if I caused any more stress for you, I've never had my decisions torn apart by thousands of replies before :/























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