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This is the first time I've been back on this site in a month.

I left because I was too online, getting brain poisoning, and just feeling worse about myself for every other post seeming to call me a bad communist (self-projecting, a personal issue more than a site issue I think/hope).

I thought I was doing well. Detoxing a bit. Grill pilled, if you will.

And then tonight. I got into a political shouting match with a good friend (who I've done this with in the past. It will blow over) because no matter what, I can't seem to stop myself from turning into the "gets political after 3 beers" meme and can't talk politics without feeling like I'm coming across like a stark-raving lunatic.

"Terminally online" really is terminal, isn't it?

Not sure if I'm back for good, but I had to put this somewhere.

So I know absolutely 0 people will care, but im gonna have to log off for a day or two. Im not in a great headspace right now, and that means its almost impossible to not take every "fuck x/y/z type people" "you're a bad commie if x" posts and comments that actually apply to me (Fuck you if you think we should work with Nazis, christ) personally. Just can't separate it, and it just helps to heap on my self-loathing. Maybe I'm just more sensitive to it and find more easily, maybe there's just more aggression than usual, but im fragile right now and this shits really starting to break me.

Keep fighting the good fight, I'll eventually be back around.

I feel like I've literally made this same comment at some point. Its tough. But I think you're good comrade. :Care-Comrade:

I missed this thread when it was posted but I just wanted to say I get you 100% comrade. Ive felt this particularly the last week or so. I'm not autistic, but depression and ADHD provides me with very similar dwelling on things and taking confrontation to heart, so I really feel that. You're not alone.

Idk i use it because I'm awful at over buying ingredients for something and making waste, have about 0 freezer space in my apartment, and something like meal prepping is a lot for me (maybe its just me, maybe its my ADHD, idk). Plus I come home braindead from work and its nice to have a recipie where all the ingredients and everything is laid out for me so I don't have to think too hard. I'm probably a shitty person who should get gud and learn to cook and meal prep and blah blah blah but fuck I forget my pass to get into the office every other week so im not exactly well put together.

Do you ever wish you could say you were good at something, and have both yourself and other people believe it?

Sounds really neat.

Oh come on now.

1. Petite-Bourgeois: If owning a business automatically classifies you for this class, fine. However, he only has 2 employees: himself, and his dog. Which would classify him much more as a freelancer that labels himself as a business. Plus, the entire impetuous of A Grand Day Out was they didn't have enough cash to take an actual trip for their vacation.

2. Imperialist: Being a semi-shitty tourist on land whose only inhabitant was a decommissioned tourism robot for a day constitutes as imperialism now? I must have forgotten the part where he established a permanent second home on the moon and forced the robot to be its groundskeeper under threat of breaking off its solar panels.

3. Landlord: He's short on cash and rents out a room in his own fucking house to someone off the street. And proceeds to let the tenant run the entire house almost completely unopposed. Feathers McGraw was more of a roommate from hell than tenant.

Wallace is prole and I will not hear otherwise.

Peter Pan was also a racist, misogynist, and child murderer. No need to recover his image.

Ah, you silly fools, he meant that the the plan to give out the checks goes out the door. Common misconception, cause good ol' Joe ain't no liar.

I mean, Funhaus is still funny tho (haven't really watched drawfee). I get dissapointed with many content creators' politics too. But I will usually ignore their politics if they at least aren't right-wing shit heads, otherwise i would be unable to watch anything execpt... idk Gus Johnson and breadtubers?

Does anyone else not really care for sincere/informational posts have the "LISTEN UP, FUCKERS" titles/energy? Like, I think its fine on shit posting and stuff, but it kind of turns me off of actual good stuff. A combination of the "le epic reddit" vibes (think "3AM Chilli") and a general confrontational feeling that makes me stressed/pushes me away from it. Idk maybe its just me.

I thought there had been something missing. Have they really not posted in 4 months? Damn...

Oh man, you've got to watch their "Interface" series. Amazing mind-bending sci-fi/supernatural... thing. It's hard to describe, just go watch it.

It is the manga that came before the anime.

No seriously, this is the source material for Shrek. They were books first.

This seems like a Tim and Eric bit they would have cut for not being funny enough. Jesus i can't believe anyone on this godforsaken rock would post that unironically thinking that it was quality or good taste or anything.

Fuck I think part of my brain is going to explode.

I used to joke about triggering and say that r*** jokes were okay. Then I met my partner and nothing changes your tune quicker than watching someone you love collapse into a PTSD attack from seeing some passing mention of the word or act on her FB feed.

I'm truly sorry that you have to deal with this, comrade. I've tried to suggest CW and wording adjustments when I see an opportunity. I know we all want to point out the monstrous nature of the ruling class, but we need to consider how we do it to avoid causing pain.

Mask of Light? Holy shit there's some childhood nostalgia that hasn't been tapped into in a while.

I like Matt, he's got a great chill-vibe and seems like genuinely good and funny dude. And Thought Slime definitely helped me in my early radicilization.

That being said, yeah stuff like citing Zenz started to make me do a double take. Then, hearing him say he doesn't understand ML/statist arguments at all while in the next breath providing a reading list that is exclusively anarchist and saying he's never read non-anarchist theory was a big "yikes". I kinda stay away from his main political stuff lately and just watch Scaredy Cats instead.

Good, gooooood! Let the hate flow through you!

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