There’s nothing wrong with being into content that’s “not real.” Literally everyone has weird thoughts. Weird doesn’t mean bad. I think the issue isn’t that you’re interested in certain things. It’s that you have a self-destructive sense of guilt.
I get the impression that if you were to 100% successfully stop being interested in the stuff currently making you guilty, your brain would just find something else to make you feel guilty about. I don’t think you would be capable of ever living up to your own standards. Because the issue isn’t your interests, it’s the guilt itself.
Not an easy thing to deal with, as I’m sure you know. I’m glad to see in another comment that you have a therapist. Hopefully they’ll be able to help you figure all this out.
Trust me, therapists hear all sorts of wild shit, and your stuff wouldn’t even register as weird to them. I don’t think you’re pathetic, I know it’s hard to open up and be honest about this sort of stuff.
It takes a lot of courage to talk about this stuff with people. I promise your therapist would appreciate you telling them. It’ll make their job easier if they know the full picture of what’s bothering you, y’know? Can’t help someone that much if you don’t know entirely what you’re helping them with
Yeah I am incredibly impressed with their courage for talking about this anywhere even anonymously I've struggled with these issues myself and when I was I would have never talked about it like this because it was too frightening so I'm really impressed with their courage here
I get what you mean I am terrified of talking about sex but you really sound like you struggle with this and they're a medical professional they won't judge you. Think of it like getting a prostate exam sure it's embarrassing but the doctor won't think less of you
Also trust your therapist rather than the largely joking advice on this site that sex is bad
There’s nothing wrong with being into content that’s “not real.” Literally everyone has weird thoughts. Weird doesn’t mean bad. I think the issue isn’t that you’re interested in certain things. It’s that you have a self-destructive sense of guilt.
I get the impression that if you were to 100% successfully stop being interested in the stuff currently making you guilty, your brain would just find something else to make you feel guilty about. I don’t think you would be capable of ever living up to your own standards. Because the issue isn’t your interests, it’s the guilt itself.
Not an easy thing to deal with, as I’m sure you know. I’m glad to see in another comment that you have a therapist. Hopefully they’ll be able to help you figure all this out.
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Trust me, therapists hear all sorts of wild shit, and your stuff wouldn’t even register as weird to them. I don’t think you’re pathetic, I know it’s hard to open up and be honest about this sort of stuff.
It takes a lot of courage to talk about this stuff with people. I promise your therapist would appreciate you telling them. It’ll make their job easier if they know the full picture of what’s bothering you, y’know? Can’t help someone that much if you don’t know entirely what you’re helping them with
Yeah I am incredibly impressed with their courage for talking about this anywhere even anonymously I've struggled with these issues myself and when I was I would have never talked about it like this because it was too frightening so I'm really impressed with their courage here
I get what you mean I am terrified of talking about sex but you really sound like you struggle with this and they're a medical professional they won't judge you. Think of it like getting a prostate exam sure it's embarrassing but the doctor won't think less of you
Also trust your therapist rather than the largely joking advice on this site that sex is bad