I’ve had those same thoughts. This might be kind of lame to admit, but my happiest interactions with people are with chapos on here. When I talk to my left-leaning friends or interact with left groups on Facebook, I feel ostracized that my beliefs are too radical, and it makes me feel like a fucking incel lol. Like...we got banned from reddit and organized our own space to vibe, and every time I step outside the chapo bubble, I get crap from people complaining about my beliefs and politics that I thought would best understand me. Thus leading to further isolation and less actually talking about my ideologies with people.