I'm going to fucking break. I can't keep up functioning like a normal person. It's an endless cycle of overextending myself, crashing and painfully getting back up. Everything I do towards making myself and my life better takes away so much energy that I stall and crash. For every step forward, it seems like I take two backwards. And the worst thing is that people don't understand. It's a cycle of extreme stress that I don't want to keep enduring, it keeps fucking coming, I'm like constantly behind. It never stops.
Sorry for the rant, I needed to vent somewhere into the void.
Trying to explain to people how you're not like others and stress really messes you up is exhausting even in itself. I know exactly where you're coming from comrade. I hope the advice isn't too trite, but keep doing small things, if you can. That's what's worked for me. One thing at a time, one foot in front of the other. I know even that can be difficult with people demanding so much from you, but I hope it can help.
The cycle of “overextend, crash, fall behind, overextend to catch up, repeat” is so familiar. It’s gotten easier to manage as I’ve gotten older, but it‘s a struggle. Be kind to yourself, and do what you can to avoid the need to conform to other people’s expectations. Easier said than done, but I find it helpful to remind myself that I don’t need to put on a show for everyone on top of everything else.
Thank you for the support :af-heart: :meow-hug:
I've decided to take a few days off to destress. I don't recognize when I take on too much before it's too late.
