but it also keeps me poor (it’s expensive, black market)

have you tried growing your own? it can be under a hundred to get setup, less depending what you have lying around and you save that from the weed you get in your first grow anyway. Doesn't take much space, like 1'x1'x4' vertical, and growing it is really really satisfying (especially if you're usually alienated from the products of your labor) - check out r/spacebuckets for some small grow setups and tips