I've found it so difficult to find a therapist for this reason. Especially now that I'm a therapist myself, I can't deal with my colleagues who face the void of insane human suffering and misery every fucking day and then think, "this is fine."

For comrades reading this - there ARE like-minded therapists out there. If you can, I recommend steering away from therapists who focus on individual deficit modalities like CBT or DBT. Try to find someone who is more humanistic, existential, client-centered. Acceptance and Commitment Therapy is worth a shot. It may take many attempts to find the right person and I believe it is genuinely helpful once you get there.