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  • UmbraVivi [he/him, she/her]
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    4 years ago

    I'm in a similar situation. My parents and teachers have always told me how smart I was and if I only put in a little bit of work I could easily be the best in class and it only led to me developing a huge ego while still getting garbage grades in the later years and now in uni.

    I'm 23 now and to be honest? I still have these borderline delusions that I am somehow the second coming of Einstein or shit like that and that because of that I don't need to study as much even though I'm close to straight up failing university.

    I'm fully aware of it but I still can't get it together. I don't want to blame my parents for it it's largely my fault but man, I don't know what to do anymore.

    Shoutout to my therapist effectively saying "have you tried making a list" xd

    • Des [she/her, they/them]
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      4 years ago

      I was 21 when I was going through what you are now (everything went off the rails for me at 23 but that's not really relevant to this). To this day I think I had ADD but was very anti-ADD treatment back then because I saw too many friends get "zombified" by Ritalin and thought it would just kill my spark or something.
      I hope I don't sound like I'm suggesting "making a list" lol. Is it just like motivation or boredom issues for you?

      • UmbraVivi [he/him, she/her]
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        4 years ago

        I think I fried my brains by being online 24/7 and now I'm psychologically incapable of doing anything that takes any effort at all

        I'm trying to come off of it but it is difficult

        • Des [she/her, they/them]
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          4 years ago

          yeah i'm kind of old so being online 24/7 wasn't an option then it was more like "online sessions". I will say these days it's done something similar to me expanding myself beyond this rut i'm in. you've recognized the problem though so I think you've taken a good first step to conquering it.