i was pretty full of hate (i got sexually assaulted a lot) when i was younger but hrt fixed me up to some degree. i started out being a socialist and the hatred just made me apathetic for a time period until i went back to being a socialist when i got my shit somewhat sorted.

getting assaulted by many random strangers made me stop feeling socialist things because i no longer gave a shit about any other random person. talking about it helped me get out of that mindset