It's been a slow trickle ever since COVID started. Just progressively losing any hope of having a good life long term. Hormones got banned in my state and I feel really dysphoric. The people in my life don't care about me. I could die right now and I don't think anybody would even realize for a few weeks. Idk man, what's even the point anymore?

  • BeamBrain [he/him]
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    11 months ago

    Your death is their ultimate goal. Every day you stay alive is a small victory, even if it doesn't feel like it.

    • zoe [none/use name]
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      11 months ago

      yea man, i just wake up everyday and move throu life just to spite people that just want me to give up and die, i dont have any other motive..living in itself is silly, but sometimes u have to cancel that reasonable part of ur brain and chug through life like any moving piece of meat created on this earth

  • HotSoda [love/loves]
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    11 months ago

    One foot in front of the other. That's all it takes to keep going.

    Keep your chin up and your back straight. Eyes open.

    Those are the things I made mantras for myself to get through dark times. And I've been in the dark a lot. I will be again, too. And that's ok. You just keep going, that's all.

    • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]
      hexagon
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      11 months ago

      How much do they typically cost? Money has also been a limiting factor, but thank you for telling me about that place

      • durbutter [he/him]
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        11 months ago

        It's $100-120 iirc, but they last a long time. It's been so long since I got mine I even forgot how much it cost, but I bought it about 8 mos ago and still have a good amount left.

  • D61 [any]
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    11 months ago

    When all else fails, survive out of spite. lea-finger-guns