I was even walking for like twenty minutes before I got extremely anxious haha! I spent a lot of time acutely looking for people's reactions and whatnot, but every time I saw and liked my reflection in a puddle or a window felt like such a victory and such a relief.

I can hardly imagine that anxiety ever really going away, but I also thought I was never going to get over my ex at one point either and now here we are. It's been a long and slow struggle towards self-acceptance but I finally feel like I'm making progress for the first time in years.

Thanks to this community for being so pro-trans and to all the trans comrades whose lack of fear and loud voices have made it impossible to cloak myself in denial. :trans-heart:

edit: thanks for the outpouring of support, it's been really validating :)

  • pubic_library [any]
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    4 years ago

    yay. especially with masks this stuff is super easy. :chapochat-trans:

    ive been going out in cuUuuUte knee length dresses and short heels often recently while working on my fashion and am building so much confidence, it just takes seeing that people have no reaction...

    • bubbalu [they/them]
      hexagon
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      4 years ago

      truly! I had maybe two people pointedly avoid eye contact with me, but that was it! I just tend towards paranoia and assume everyone is staring at me, but I'm working thru it.