idk, maybe askchapo is a better place for this.
Does anyone have like...experience or knowledge about hiring that will calm my anxieties?
I have had several customer service jobs, and as much as I don't want to do it again I have to do something and I don't feel qualified for much else.
Looking at stuff in my area there is a part-time position at a library nearby which sounds bearable....but thinking about applying for anything just gives me anxiety.
I quit my first job after working for over a year to go back to school, but I eventually went to the psych ward and dropped out.
Then some time later I tried working at a gas station, but left a note and quit one night because I couldn't handle the hours and dysphoria.
I tried getting a part time position at a grocery store a bit after that but quit after a day or two.
Since then I have just been a neet.
I am terminally unhireable.
If I go to an interview I have no idea what I am going to say. Idk what a background check is going to reveal. I'm trying to get a hold of my life, but it feels pointless at this point, I don't pass, I can't hold down a job, even if I could no one would hire me.
wtf do I even do.
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Even if that's true, what's wrong with that? I think we can all agree here that society as it is is a fuck, and that you do not owe anything to it. Being unemployed has been villified and publicly shamed for decades, for a good while it was, on the ideological side, the core part of the neoliberal agenda to plant unemployment as the biggest fear in people's heads. To make workers more reluctant to resign, to make applicants more desperate for jobs, growing the reserve army of labor and strenghtening capitals's bargaining position in job interviews. We've all sucked this nonsense up for ages, the resentment of "trailer trash" or "NEETS" or "Hartzers" over here in my country, the stories about "welfare queens" and "freeloaders", the fairytales about "bootstrapping" and "from rags to riches". It's a steaming pile of garbage. It's a proto-fascist, social darwinist false consciosuness brainwashing that we've all undergone. And let me tell you, for the unemployed there's nothing better than permanently disbelieving this shit. Your worth as a person has nothing whatsoever to do with how easily you can be integrated into a capitalist profit-maximizing scheme. You are a human being and your life is inherently valuable. That you quit two underpaid, high turnover service jobs years ago says nothing about who you are as a person.
I mean, i could go and talk you through how to deal with a gap in your resume, or how to go about this job application shit in general, i've been there myself. But back when i was unemployed, accepting myself and not giving a fuck about expectations or about being valued by neoliberal society did me more good than any job application pointers. It's entirely possible that you'll never have as much free time in your life as right now, why waste it hating yourself? Tomorrow morning, monday morning, when i'm cursing capitalism in the rush hour traffic, i want you to sleep in, and to feel good about that. Because you fucking deserve it, comrade.
I'm not op, but this is really well written comrade. Thank you :heart-sickle: