I was still a dumb lib back then. But my radicalization has really peeled opened my eyes to my part in continuing colonialism in Africa and imperialism in the Middle East.
But if I had never served, a lot of the understanding I have would not exist. Or how the military functions and how fucked up and clueless everyone is. Or how so many are working class being recruited for the basic conditions we as leftists want for everyone. Housing, job, sense of purpose, food, etc.
Just hard tackling all of this stuff and thoughts sometimes.
I agree with you 100%. You're not looking for an excuse for your military service, it doesn't seem. But it's absolutely ridiculous, especially among the left for you not to be given a 2nd chance after you realize what's really going on. I hate to admit this, but I'm not perfect either. I've been a sack of shit before. I don't want forgiveness, but a chance at redemption beside my comrades would be nice.