this is straight up racist, transphobic, and is basically just an excuse for some weirdo to write fanfiction about a war.
I'm trying to quit drinking, if not permanently at least for the month which would be the longest I've ever gone. Time is taking forever to go by and I'm almost afraid to do anything besides sit in my apartment because I always rationalize buying more booze as a reward for doing simple stuff like just getting out of the house to get groceries. It's been extremely lonely and I don't feel like myself even though I don't feel better.
Have gone like 2.5 days without drinking. Am trying to quit or at least go all of august, which would be the longest I've gone since I started more than ten years ago. It just feels so lonely and time is taking forever to go by.
I'm sorry, that sucks. <3 I think I go through something similar with songs like that, especially when I hear them at work. It just triggers this thing in my brain and I get a really strong urge to just go listen to music while I get drunk and do nothing at home. I start thinking about how much time I'll have to go to the store after I get off work and I've got a whole plan to binge drink in my head within a few minutes and I have to catch myself. There's quite a bit of music I just don't really listen to anymore.