Hiya! Your friendly neighborhood corgi checking in on you again! Been a while since we've had one of these. Figured with the election and all, might as well, plus I don't have any work yet today so fuck it, check on my friends!
For the new folks, welcome! I do these from time to time just to give people a space to vent and unwind, or tell us abotu anything exciting you've got going on.
For my own part, band stuff is coming along nicely! Did a gig with a friends band last Friday that went well, our second show with a 2nd guitarist. Writing and recording, new tracks should be out by the spring. Also posted a video of the show here a few days ago. Beyond that, work has been....eh. Still looking for a full time thing, its been 14 months now. AI training has me on a few new projects, but the work is coming in slow. Had to split rent into 2 payments this month and I was able to get the first sent out, but still worried about settling up the rest next week.
Beyond that, not much else going on. One year with no booze this month, so fuck yeah for that.
Hope you're well, and remember you are loved 
Don't beat yourself up about breaking the streak, it's all part of the process. Maybe the anger is related to the dysphoria? Do you have anyone offline you'd be able to talk to about it?
I'm not beating myself up about it right now, I'm worried this behavior is going to continue and get worse. Probably, it causes a lot of things. No, no one offline. I'm not sure what I can do.
Hope you find peace soon