I found actually getting rid of depression to be a more active process that required awareness of my thoughts and feelings and constant vigilance over which ones led to depression/anxiety and which ones were normal reactions to the present moment. after a couple of years of short-circuiting depressive thoughts, it stopped being an immediate problem and it largely became second nature along the way. lsd helped in a more roundabout way in that it forced me to grapple with being trans, which was preventing me from being actually happy.
(Un)fortunately, my depression doesn't stem from gender issues, but with existence in this absolutely cursed world and childhood trauma instead. Some days are worse than others, but I know deep down there's still a glimmer of hope that I may be cured one day. And if it doesn't work, well, I might write a book to help me therapeutically and financially. And if it fails ... uh, i'll wait for the revolution to grant me euthanasia lmao.
nah, mine didn't either, but it sure didn't help. I'm just prone to depression and have to be careful of not getting sucked into depressive spirals.
but with existence in this absolutely cursed world and childhood trauma instead.
yeah, mood.
one thing that helped me a ton was learning to recognize the first feelings that mean "depressive episode incoming" or "it's about to get a lot worse". for me, it's this sense that I wanted to do something but I didn't feel like doing any of the things that actually came to mind. YMMV
writing is also good. a book is a lot to jump into all at once, but shorter pieces helped me work through a lot of stuff.
I found actually getting rid of depression to be a more active process that required awareness of my thoughts and feelings and constant vigilance over which ones led to depression/anxiety and which ones were normal reactions to the present moment. after a couple of years of short-circuiting depressive thoughts, it stopped being an immediate problem and it largely became second nature along the way. lsd helped in a more roundabout way in that it forced me to grapple with being trans, which was preventing me from being actually happy.
(Un)fortunately, my depression doesn't stem from gender issues, but with existence in this absolutely cursed world and childhood trauma instead. Some days are worse than others, but I know deep down there's still a glimmer of hope that I may be cured one day. And if it doesn't work, well, I might write a book to help me therapeutically and financially. And if it fails ... uh, i'll wait for the revolution to grant me euthanasia lmao.
nah, mine didn't either, but it sure didn't help. I'm just prone to depression and have to be careful of not getting sucked into depressive spirals.
yeah, mood.
one thing that helped me a ton was learning to recognize the first feelings that mean "depressive episode incoming" or "it's about to get a lot worse". for me, it's this sense that I wanted to do something but I didn't feel like doing any of the things that actually came to mind. YMMV
writing is also good. a book is a lot to jump into all at once, but shorter pieces helped me work through a lot of stuff.