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  • cosecantphi [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    I'll never forget my first DXM trip. I took them at sunset and then called up some friends over skype to chat/play video games as the trip progressed. It was the most surreal experience of my life, even more so than my first LSD trip a few months before this.

    I felt like I had uncovered the secret meaning of life and was at the precipice of enlightenment. I remember feeling as though all my bodily functions had become conscious as my stomach struggled to digest all those gelcaps. As I talked to my friends and listened to music, I felt like reality was slowly being squished into a two dimensional slice moving through time. I remember talking to them, asking them to prove to me we aren't all simply biological robots with the illusion of free will. Dextromethorphan made me feel as though that illusion had been lifted, and I was witnessing under the hood how the human brain functions without all the pretense that masks it throughout everyday life.

    At first it was a little scary, but throughout the trip I slowly came to terms and made peace with it. And at the peak, I felt more at peace with myself than I ever had before in my life.

    LSD has given me similar experiences since then, but LSD trips for me tend to be filled with anxiety and uncomfortable levels of introspection. The dissociative nature of DXM allowed me to feel the same things in a more calm and relaxed headspace, almost as though I was merely an observer in my own mind.