Moss [they/them]

Who up sauling they Goodman. Is that anything

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Cake day: June 18th, 2023
  • Moss [they/them]toAmérica Latina & Caribe•Ejidos - Nuevo Megahilo General para el 9 al 13 de Noviembre 2024
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    2 months ago
    cw extreme self harm/ suicide

    I don't really want to kill myself (I kinda do) but I do want to shoot myself in the mouth. Not out of a desire to die but because I want to feel extreme pain. Idk the only thing that would feel comforting is destroying my head with a bullet. I've had this urge before with blowing my kneepcap to pieces with a shotgun.

    I've never even held a gun or been seriously injured, but these urges just come to me.

    For anyone concerned I'm not actually planning on committing suicide or self harm. I just want to

  • Moss [they/them]toAmérica Latina & Caribe•Ejidos - Nuevo Megahilo General para el 9 al 13 de Noviembre 2024
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    2 months ago
    me being sad and stupid

    My friends are not liking me recently and I'm actually not being dramatic or overthinking. Two of them have sat me down recently and told me that I'm being too clingy and not taking care of myself and not enjoyable to be around. They don't want to spend time with me anymore, they organize stuff without me. I've fucked myself in this friendship and it is my fault I want to fucking kill myself

  • Moss [they/them]toaskchapo•Can someone please explain to me like I'm five how Britain and France weren't the good guys in WW1?
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    2 months ago

    World war 1 was the ultimate conclusion of the capitalist imperialism that emerged in the 19th century, with France and especially Britain as the victors. Germany, a rapidly industrialising, heavily militarized state, presented a threat to the status quo. What Germany wanted was to be in Britain's place as the chief imperialist in the world.

    Capitalist countries must inevitably come into conflict - for a deeper understanding of this, read Imperialism, the Highest Stage if Capitalism by Lenin.

    Germany wasn't doing anything good, but they weren't really any worse than Britain and France.

    People call Britain and France in this time "democracies", although this is not true. They denied hundreds of millions their right to self-determination in their colonies, and only extended the right to vote to the privileged few in the mother countries.

    World war 1 was an utter waste of lives. Millions upon millions of lives were destroyed so that capitalists could protect their empires. The only good that came of it was that it was the catalyst for the October Revolution.

  • Moss [they/them]todisabled•Disabled Community Megathread - November 4th to November 10th
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    2 months ago
    talking about how I've never really accepted that I'm disabled? you may have heard this all before

    So I don't have one visible, defining disability, but I have plenty of small physical and significant mental things that affect me. I'm visually impaired, that's the most obvious - I'm shortsighted and have astigmatism, and I have to always wear glasses to function. That's an easily treatable disability that is not stigmatized, and barely even seen as a disability by most.

    I'm also slightly hard of hearing and I have weird feet (dunno if that's a disability? I need specific shoes or I'll be in pain when I walk for extended periods of time). I used to get ingrown toenails because normal shoes made me stand and walk weirdly.

    I've also had kinda weak lungs for basically no reason. When I was like 15 I had a bad coughing fit at the beach once, and it's just never stopped. Every now and then I have to cough a lot, like way more than any healthy person. Nobody knows what's up with that.

    That brings me on to long covid. The coughing got way worse ever since I got covid for the second time this summer. Also I've lost most of my sense of smell.

    Then there's the mental list of neurodivergence and mental illness. ADHD, autism, depression, anxiety. These all greatly impact me.

    But for some reason - I guess because no one ever said it to me - I have never identified as disabled. No one ever said "Moss, you are disabled", so I just assumed I wasnt. I obviously am, in a lot of minor ways, but people think disability is just needing a wheelchair. It's only in the past couple months that I've actually had the realization that I am disabled and always have been. I had (and still have) a lot of reactionary brainworks around disability to excise.