I'm bisexual. My grandfather committed suicide. I've been meditating for an hour a day and reading Ulysses and I feel my doomerism and contempt melting away.

  • keatsta [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    Made an account just to reply to this. I love Ulysses. I feel like it has a very psychedelic energy, the way every aspect of the language and content warps around the emotional space of the characters. And of course Circe is just... beyond hallucinatory. What do you think of this song that I happen to be listening to? "差異" by ann ihsa. This is the sort of music I like best on psychedelics. I hope you're having a wonderful trip.

    • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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      4 years ago

      Thanks you're awesome. Ulysses is the most wild trip because you'll go from bloom being a comfy boomer detailing everything he sees to the scene just a few paged later where he's thinking of corpses as rat food from looking down the tunnel. I liked your song alot too thanks

  • GVAGUY3 [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    I hate living at home. I want to try but even tho my parents are probably fine with it, I don't have anyone to trip sit my first time and I don't want my Dad to trip sit me.

    • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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      4 years ago

      My old hippy dad came in once when I was tripping on mushrooms in high school and he wished me a good trip, it was cool

  • lizbo [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    Ayyy I'm planning to eat a buttload of shrooms w my best friend tomorrow and I'm so excited! I'll have to make sure I shitpost here tomorrow while trippin

    • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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      4 years ago

      Based. I have a best friend too it a great honor. I wouldn't trade him for anything. He's in Japan rn

      • lizbo [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        We ended up having so much fun! I hadn't seen her in ages and my trip made me realize I need to spend more time with my friends. I wouldn't trade her for anything either.

  • abc [he/him, comrade/them]
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    4 years ago

    I miss acid. I think I have like a tab and a half pilfered away in a canister hidden somewhere on my bookshelf, but I never have an entire day to dedicate to it

  • Indifference_Engine [comrade/them, any]
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    4 years ago

    Where does one get Acid nowadays? Like, I'm kinda sheltered, and I've lost touch with all my friends who were cool enough to know/be a drug dealer, so I'm flying blind here

          • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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            4 years ago

            This is a real story that I just wrote out for the first time. A few months ago I was walking back to campus from the bars when a passed this little strip mall type thing in a busy area and saw this girl freaking out. I went up to her and asked what's up. She said an bunch of crazy which and told me she was on acid and couldn't be in the light of the gambling place down the street where she had come from. I was going to call my friend and try to get us a ride and then she attacked me and said a bunch of crazy shit so I left and the last place I saw her was she hunched over a log in front of the kratom bar with her backpack ( I guess she was a student). she was wearing a red sweatshirt. So anyways I come back to this area a few days later to get some kratom from the place next to where she was and I swear I find her red sweatshirt among a bunch of spread out papers among other things which still bother me. I go into the kratom bar to get my stuff and tell the girl behind the counter all this and she doesn't believe me because I changed the story to say that I had taken the girl on the acid trip home because of guilt. I never called the cops To this day, in this commerce area behind the Arby's in Grand Junction CO you can find the log. The seasons have covered the girls papers but you can still sweep it away and see them for yourselves.

            • half_giraffe [comrade/them]
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              4 years ago

              I don't think you should feel bad about not calling the cops because they have a history of being shitty, but yeah that's wild. I hope she's okay.

              • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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                4 years ago

                Its relevant that the place I live is the center of collapse. There are no jobs and meth is absurdly popular. The most refined folk, if you get them drunk will admit to trying at least once, I've been given it by nervous people and I've snorted it. We're all familiar with the state you find yourself in. You say crazy shit, flex your muscles, and have a good time. I've lived here all my life and was certain she was a methhead. If I thought she was really in danger I would have called the cops. The shitty, worthless, abusive cops. At least it would have been something

                • half_giraffe [comrade/them]
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                  4 years ago

                  I do always forget how I'm from a much more bougie area than most people, I've literally never seen someone on meth before let alone been offered it. I can understand then, especially for a police force in the area, that they have some sort of experience with not outright murdering people on drugs. I just think it's easy to fall into the moral trap of "I should have done something" when in hindsight, and I don't think it's very productive to dwell too much on past actions like this - each action has to be taken with the present considerations in mind, so I don't want you to blame yourself for what happened to this woman (especially because you aren't 100% sure what happened to her).

                  I'm just trying to be supportive, I guess, and I don't want you to lay so much responsibility on yourself. I can literally never imagine myself being a methhead, so putting myself in this story is difficult. I just hope you don't spend a ton of time worrying about what could have been.

            • coeliacmccarthy [he/him]
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              4 years ago

              Jeez! I can't say I fully understand what went on but that sounds ominous. Did you need that off your chest?

  • quartz242 [she/her]M
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    4 years ago

    Nice thread, I'm vibing with you by interacting via this thread.

    I was meditating on Indra's net this morning, the infinite fractal reflection is akin to the spiritual experience of introspection during an acid trip, the infinite reflection of the self within the psyche.

    Top favorite trips are psy trance festival drawing in sand during twilight hour with people from around the world.

    Playing super smash brothers with 3 other people while tripping. I forgot the rule set but like super hard to kill each other and just fucking around so much fun. We also watched howls.moving castle.

    Love and good trip vibes to you comrade

    • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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      4 years ago

      Thanks sis, vibing with you too. What's Indra's net? Smash is fun, thinking of getting rocked off a platoform into the void by Wario's thunderous braps as we speak, cheers

    • GilesGoatGoy [none/use name]
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      4 years ago

      Thanks pls don't ban me lol jk. I just feel a great appreciation for everything good in the world and comfort because it seems to overwhelm all that's bad in a way that is humiliating for the bad

    • bewts [he/him,comrade/them]
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      4 years ago

      with gold flakes that are supposed to make micro fractures in your stomach and get you frying real hard

      That's def some nonsense. I don't doubt they're strong though.