I've felt absolutely tired for the last few months. Everything is falling apart, but I'm not surprised by anything anymore.

Trump admitted to downplaying covid? That's nice.

Border camps go full nazi? cool.

I don't feel anything anymore, just tired. I get up, go to work and then go home, repeat the same thing tomorrow. I read about hellworld, and just feel absolutely helpless. Fuck, I just want to do something meaningful, y'know?

me rn

  • fuschiaRuler [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    I've put a lot more focus on helping out at the local scale. Sure covid makes things a bit difficult, but youre helping others get through it instead of worrying about the problem itself. Could be helping a foodbank for a day. It keeps me from feeling defeated. Im with you, comrade o7

    • thomasdankara [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      thanks comrade. I attempted to join a party a while back, but after an interview they've absolutely ghosted me lol. I was really hoping to use that as an avenue for organizing.

      • cpfhornet [she/her,comrade/them]
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        4 years ago

        Which party if you don't mind my asking? Thats strange, usually the hard part is getting the interview set up.

          • cpfhornet [she/her,comrade/them]
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            4 years ago

            Definitely reach out. There are soooooooooo many people applying these days, they have been absolutely swamped. I can't think of a reason they'd just ghost you other than having to juggle 30 email chains between prospective candidates per one party member. Its a good sign but its certainly frustrating to those trying to become a part of it. Growing pains

      • fuschiaRuler [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        Maybe try reaching out to a different member. I know in my org, individuals can get swamped all the time, so that person may have been in a dip as well. Im sure theyd be happy with more members regardless.

    • poppy_apocalypse [he/him, any]
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      4 years ago

      Thanks for this comment. Super long story I'm cutting short, my neighbor, who (in her words) was almost pushing up daisies and suffers from chemo brain (after a successful battle with covid+cancer) asked me to walk her dog, since she is pretty much locked down inside. It's not much, but it gives me a small sense of community that I've been lacking since I've been working from home in March. She thanks me everyday and I keep thanking her for giving me reason to wake up and do something that benefits our neighborhood. At the same time my neighbor with the McMansion is going to war with me because her dog and my dog piss on his grass, but it keeps me on my feet.

      • fuschiaRuler [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        That's awesome man. I'm glad you have something like that. Even small shit like that makes a difference.